Journey

2011-12-20T17:10:00.000-08:00

今年的最後一個關頭
恭喜我，又失戀了。

我已經累了，我也不知道自己還能做什麽。
我爲了找尋那份禮物，我走遍了整個台中，像個苦行僧一樣，從一中到逢甲，從逢甲到東海，從東海到台中車站，再到大買家。我找不到，可是我不放棄，我開始在臺北車站，士林夜市尋找，甚至是臨江街夜市，終於在饒河街夜市找到了。

喜滋滋的給了你，卻被拒絕了。原來這就是愛情，心痛的感覺。

2011-11-28T17:52:00.001-08:00

偶爾撒嬌加點耍賴要你關心她
熬夜不睡即使疲倦電話不肯掛
喜歡你陪伴塗鴉再聽她說說傻話
輕輕的親吻臉頰不厭其煩說愛她
偶爾霸道因為不安怕你不要她
假裝好強其實委屈眼淚等你擦
不快樂她自己藏就算被笑是傻瓜
只想甜的像顆糖在你胸口慢慢的融化
她或許不完美任性的小缺點
安靜的嘟著嘴就是想你多陪一會
她不要求完美一杯開水也能醉
給的愛不准浪費勾勾手不後悔

偶爾霸道因為不安怕你不要她
假裝好強其實委屈眼淚等你擦
不快樂她自己藏就算被笑是傻瓜
只想甜的像顆糖在你胸口慢慢的融化
她或許不完美任性的小缺點
安靜的嘟著嘴就是想你多陪一會
她不要求完美一杯開水也能醉
給的愛不准浪費勾勾手不後悔

她或許不完美任性的小缺點
安靜的嘟著嘴就是想你多陪一會
她不要求完美一杯開水也能醉
給的愛不准浪費勾勾手不後悔

給的愛不准浪費勾勾手不後悔

2011-09-25T07:55:00.000-07:00

原來我們的距離一直都在
兩個階梯
是個偶然、還是命中注定呢？
我現在也習慣了，搭電扶梯時，必須離上一個人兩個階梯.....
因爲這是我們的小遊戲。

希望你能夠很幸福！
收到了你的簡訊，心中的空白終於完成了，我想沒錯，還是當朋友比較好。
我會珍惜這一段回憶的，還有我還記得我們之間的約定.....
改次（不對，這樣你又要叫我共匪了= =)，是下次！我們有機會再去鶯歌，雖然不知道要有多久了嗯

2011-09-23T16:48:00.000-07:00

原來我不管到了哪裏，我都還是找不到....

我以爲在新加坡，我心碎了，到了韓國，一樣，現在連在台灣也是，那麽我還能夠逃到哪裏？

把痛苦自己吞忍，繼續保持微笑吧，我想我有身邊的家人和朋友就足夠了，我本來就不應該奢望什麽，是我太貪心了！

好像告訴自己不要苛責自己，任性一點，可是我的任性早已用完了，我的眼淚也早已乾涸了，剩下的只有現在的我。雖然不會不理性，可是心裏還是脆弱的。

今天要到平溪放天燈，本來以爲是尋找幸福之旅，結果卻成了忘卻煩惱的最佳抉擇，希望放了天燈，一切就能夠隨風飄散，而我的祝福也能夠傳達給你，也希望上天能夠看到我，繼續眷顧我。

我好像是最後才知道，不過我想已經無所謂了，演完今天這場戯，明天再傷心，後天就又必須繼續努力了。

我的悲傷留給我自己，你一定要幸福，這已經是我每次喜歡一個人，最後一定會發展出的結局，所以請把我的幸福一起算進去。

能不能讓我　陪著妳走
即然妳說　留不住妳
回去的路　有些黑暗
擔心讓妳　一個人走

我想是因為　我不夠溫柔
不能分擔　妳的憂愁
如果這樣　說不出口
就把遺憾　放在心中

把我的悲傷　留給自己
妳的美麗　讓妳帶走
從此以後　我再沒有
快樂起來的理由

把我的悲傷　留給自己
妳的美麗　讓妳帶走
我想我可以忍住悲傷
可不可以　妳也會想起我

是不是可以　牽妳的手呢
從來沒有　這樣要求
怕妳難過　轉身就走
那就這樣吧　我會了解的

把我的悲傷　留給自己
妳的美麗　讓妳帶走
從此以後　我再沒有
快樂起來的理由

我想我可以忍住悲傷
假裝生命中沒有妳
從此以後　我在這裡
日夜等待　妳的消息

能不能讓我　陪著妳走
即然妳說　留不住妳
無論妳在　天涯海角
是不是妳　偶爾會想起我
可不可以　妳也會想起我
可不可以

blog

2011-09-22T19:11:00.000-07:00

well it has been quite a while since i wrote my last entry which was before summer holiday started :) so now while waiting to do my psychology experiment, i decide to blog!!!!

thank you everyone(whom i guess would not be checking here) for celebrating my birthday :) i am really happy when i saw the cake and the candles...while i was busy counting the candles to make sure they got my age right (well i am getting old so a bit concerned...), i did not realise that they had bought trick candles which cannot be blown out..so poor me, had to keep blowing at the candle which keep resparkling into life >< well i just hope that when they eat the cake, they did not get my saliva together as flavorings..it would have tasted bad!!!! thanks for organizing a surprise :) people like kar chun, aden, jay, roger, hangcai, amanda, debbie, shinmei, marion and vkee <3

last sunday was my birthday and time seems to fly so fast, i remember that when i first came back to taiwan to study last year, the first sunday was also my birthday :) and i celebrated it with my dad, this time round, not only did i celebrate with my dad and my cousin, i also celebrated with my friends :) old and new!!! i got a lovely guitar from jonny and i will start learning it next week!!!

nowadays i am a bit annoyed because people around seems to have changed a bit, or perhaps it is that i come to expect too much of others...anyway i decide to ignore them and just stick to people whom i concern and whom concern me :)

yay!!! tomorrow i am going somewhere fun :) to release sky lanterns and also see the waterfall with friends :) time to log off!!!

2011-06-22T23:42:00.000-07:00

有些時候我真懷疑自己是不是個笨蛋！

打架魚，我以爲我們能夠拉進彼此的距離，可是我怎麽覺得我們越來越遠了呢？

可能是我想太多了。今天一早，我就到了教室等你，答應你的事我一定做到...所以笨笨的我八點半就到了課室，笨笨的傳了簡訊，然後笨笨的等待。只因爲昨晚我心疼你晚睡，希望你能夠今天再看考古題，有問題我再幫你，可是或許你是拒絕了我吧。

看著你在很多人來了以後才進來，看著你寧願問別人問題也不問我，看著你的一舉一動，我真的傷心了。原來心碎就是這樣。打架魚，你知道我今天等你等很久，原來我在你心裏一點分量也沒有。

2011-04-26T18:25:00.000-07:00

been wanting to post this entry many days ago..but i never really knew how to go about writing it until now...

夜黑夜寂寞的夜里气生气对自己生气

sometimes i wonder if i should be so foolish, every lonely night i start thinking of you...makes me wonder if you ever really think of me...why is it that every time i log onto facebook, i will always see your entries...when i keep promising myself i should not read..but in the end i still read...wanting to know more about you from a distance..but do you ever read the entries i posted...

我的声音在笑泪在飙电话那头的你可知道世界若是那麽大为何我要忘你无处逃
我的声音在笑泪在飙电话那头的你可知道世界若是那麽小为何我的真心你听不到

i am not sure if i had done so..but i always tried to help you when you needed help..and there is no one around to help you...i always tried to keep you in sight and when there is problem and no one can help you, i will..even though you never ever approached me for any help..you would rather ask the others and talk to others but remain silent with me...the more silent you are around me, the more i do not know how to approach you and the more distant we are from each other...but do you know how i feel really deep down in my heart??

現在也只能欣賞　唯一的合照一張淡忘了的是那個街角　想念的是當時的微笑

once before i thought we were friendly with each other..but now merely silence left between us..i wonder what made us grew apart but i never really can find the answer..maybe i am the one who started being silent as we saw each other less last time...but now when we can see each other more...and when i start feeling for you...i can look at the photo we took before together and just think..without knowing how to make us closer again

如果有一天　我們再見面　時間會不會倒退一點也許我們都忽略　互相傷害之外的感覺
如果哪一天　我們都發現　好聚好散不過是種遮掩如果我們沒發現　就給彼此多一點時間

last night...i felt really bad..seeing you being so close to others while i sat near yet felt so far..and really even though i have done my best....even doing things that i thought would make you happy, i never got back a word of thanks or yup you never even bother to approach me and ask me if i want to join you guys for dinner..so maybe i think i should give up and let go...

時光是琥珀淚一滴滴被反鎖
情書在不朽也磨成沙漏

青春的上游白雲飛走蒼狗與海鷗
閃過的念頭潺潺的溜走
命運好幽默讓愛的人都沉默
一整個宇宙換一顆紅豆

回憶如困獸　寂寞太久而漸漸溫柔
放開了拳頭反而更自由

慢動作繾綣膠卷重播默片定格一瞬間

我們在告別的演唱會說好不再見
你寫給我我的第一首歌
你和我十指緊扣默寫前奏
可是那然後呢
還好我有我這一首情歌
輕輕的輕輕哼著哭著笑著
我的天長地久

命運好幽默讓愛的人都沉默
一整個宇宙換一顆紅豆

回憶如困獸寂寞太久而漸漸溫柔
放開了拳頭反而更自由

長鏡頭越拉越遠越來越遠事隔好幾年
我們在懷念的演唱會禮貌地吻別

你寫給我我的第一首歌
你和我十指緊扣默寫前奏
可是那然後呢
還好我有我這一首情歌
輕輕的輕輕哼著哭著笑著
我的天長地久

陪我唱歌清唱你的情歌
捨不得短短副歌
心還熱著也該告一段落
還好我有我下一首情歌
生命宛如靜靜的相擁的河
永遠天長地久

i will always try to be nice to you, but you never really know and understand...or even appreciate..maybe you take my niceness for granted and maybe even if i am not nice to you, maybe someone else will...so you will never ever wonder that one day i will be tired and i will no longer help you....maybe it does not mean anything to you....

i always wonder why is it that it is so difficult to find someone who will love me and whom i love as well..but my roommates told me last night that it IS difficult..so hard..sometimes happiness can be simple yet so far to reach....when can i ever write the love song with the person i love??

perhaps letting go is what i have to do now....i have so many nice friends around me and yes, probably you shall stay as a friend who is so distant that i may forget...the world's cruelest thing is that we may be so close physically but our hearts are so far apart...but i will have to bear with it...

changing an environment doesn't help..love never work out for me in singapore, korea and now even my last haven taiwan remain a place of heart-breaking...yet i know i have the support of friends and family members around me :)

2011-04-08T07:41:00.000-07:00

it has been a long time since i last blogged...

well certain things i try to forget and after such a long time, i think i know how to put it behind my back and move on...

anyway...alright after such a long while, the body starts to malfunction again...suffering from a sore throat right now and feeling not really good...mid-terms are in around a week's time and really feel unlucky to be sick now...

well never mind, i will hang in there...just like i have always done...no concern is fine by me...i am a big guy, i will self-heal without other's help...well when i am tired, i have to hang on myself..who will give me the encouragement or who will take care and be concern?? well i don't want my family folks to be worried...so i will just do my best to get myself right again....visit the doctor on monday is probably a good idea...

sometimes i wonder if i am a bad guy..i know i am terrible to be with..never nice..perhaps that's how i feel all the time...sometimes you wonder if being concern about others is good..maybe i should care more about myself, because ends up hurting myself all the time...being aloof is perhaps what i should learn..just do what i need to do and stop being foolish..my concern is never appreciated so what....maybe like that i would feel better if noone reciprocates the kindness..ha

like i say..i am the big brother..so i will hang on...i will stay cheerful and optimistic...when i am feeling low, just hide one corner and self-heal..that is probably the super power i should have now...no need radioactivity dust, i know i have already mastered this skill...

ok time to sleep...after waking up tmr, i shall be a strong man again

a dream last night

2010-08-24T07:14:00.000-07:00

i met her in my dream last night, it was a rainy day, the sky was dark..we were walking on the streets...i was carrying an umbrella and so was she with someone else beside her...i saw a tattoo on her leg, or maybe it was just a drawing, but it seemed so vivid, with a heart shape and her initials..so i asked her if she already have someone else in mind, if she already liked someone else..that's why she decided to go that school, and she replied shyly, "yes!"..so maybe that was the reality that the dream wanted to communicate to me..

yesterday i went to the youth olympics village and on the way, shuo qian, veronica and I met the swedish triple jump athlete champion. she was with her coach and there were only 5 of us on the bus, it was uber cool and we chatted with them and took pictures with them..

at the village, i went to visit xin hui, and talked to her a while in her office where she was printing cert for the victorious athletes and after which the three of us hanged around, visited some of the athletes and then the booths =) i met the taiwanese athletes while veronica managed to chat with the colombians..we also caught a glimpse of Guo Jing Jing the china dive queen..then i made a peg and won a bookmark from the korean booth...

after that i decide to go back to bishan for my second shift of the day with athletics..on the way, it was pouring...the bus drove by innovation centre of NTU and i was reminded of the day when we went out alone together, on your birthday...i remembered we were wet, my umbrella was spoilt and you lent me your spare umbrella..we got our feet wet and the wait at the medical centre..i was reminded of you again..maybe that's why i dreamt of you last night..

i thought i can be strong and forget about you already but guess i still need some time...but i know that while volunteering, i have made many good friends and the time spent at YOG volunteering allowed me to concentrate on life and not think about you...

i really like my fellow colleagues at Bishan because they are all so friendly and we can feel the sense of teamwork and warmth of the friendship that we have established in this short two weeks..i guess i will miss the volunteering when i return to taiwan to study next monday..

time flies, and i will have to leave soon, leave singapore, a place where i have stayed for 15 years..maybe the taiwanese reporter is right..he told me i would not adapt to taiwan's way of life when i return but i guess i will just have to adapt..i was so frustrated by the stupid school website but my mum just tell me to get used to it..so i hope i will...i will miss my friends in singapore, whether friends i have known for so long since pri school or those that i have just made maybe like only last week...

nevertheless i know i am heading for new challenges in life...i will face it bravely and i know in taiwan i can meet fantastic people and find good friendship as well =) hopefully everything will go fine when i return next monday..wish me luck =)

p.s. today i went to shoot some hoops at the community centre and i was crowded out of the court by a bunch of uncle..they seemed fitter than me and some even have tattoo so i can't complain...well respecting the elderly is what we should all do right? haha

2010-08-09T01:33:00.000-07:00

btw,

happy national day =)

i dunno whether if she is angry at me or irritated or what...i hope not but my hopes of asking her out to watch fireworks are dashed..thought it can be a romantic moment for us but guess i can't muster up the courage to ask her anymore since she already rejected me...i hope she can have a good national day and take care

2010-08-09T01:25:00.000-07:00

一开始我以为爱本来会很容易
所以没有经过允许就把你放心里
直到后来有一天你和他走在一起
我才发现原来爱情不是真心就可以

我感动天感动地怎么感动不了你
明明知道没有结局却还死心塌地
我感动天感动地怎么感动不了你
总相信爱情会有奇迹都是我骗自己

以为自己不再去想你保持不被刺痛的距离
就算早已忘了我自己却还想要知道你的消息

我感动天感动地怎么感动不了你
明明知道没有结局却还死心塌地
我感动天感动地怎么感动不了你
总相信爱情会有奇迹都是我骗自己

i thought that i can have a chance because you are different from the girls that i have liked before, i never have this sense of stability and comfort with any other girls before...but maybe i had made a mistake and yup although you would rather we remain friends, i hope to shower you with my love, whether it be friendship or something more =) i just hope that a miracle will happen and maybe you can turn around one day and see me still waiting by your side..i hope to be the guiding star in your life and you be the torch that brightens my path =)

2010-08-06T09:11:00.000-07:00

i think i have again demonstrate my art on being insensitive to the max again..

rather than caring for another's feeling, i am emoing here and making someone else feel bad..

please do not feel bad, you've given me an answer so let's move on..

what i need is that we can treat each other like normal friends again that is not awkward and that you will not ignore me...

hmmm so yup please do not feel bad...

final closure

2010-08-06T01:08:00.000-07:00

能不能让我陪着你走既然你说留不住你回去的路有些黑暗担心让你一个人走

would you wait for me for 7 years?

would you treasure the time, though short while, that we spent together...

你想要的我却不能够给你我全部我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的

i have the answers to your questions already, i should be feeling contented..because our friendship is still intact but frankly speaking, i still feel kind of disappointed that we have to stay like this...maybe you are right, friendship last longer than romance but i think if we put in the effort, we can have a future together though it be fraught with challenges, whether by distance or time...maybe i am still too innocent when it comes to relationships that i though things would be simple as long as both parties put in the effort but guess that's not true..

是不是可以牵你的手啊从来没有这样要求怕你难过转身就走那就这样吧我会了解的

when u told me ur answer last night and made your stand clear to me, i was upset, hearbroken, i felt pain in my left ventricle and just felt like closing my eyes and sleeping off every sorrow in my bones, yet i could not fall asleep..i just stayed awake throughout the night, thinking,..yup you may laugh at me for being foolish and that i should just let it go, but i guess i need time and everytime i fell in love, i need a long time to recover...i am not a flirt and i treat every chance with yous eriously, maybe there might be misunderstandings but please believe me that my heart was filled to the brim by you already..

为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切你又狠狠逼退我的防备静静关上门来默数我的泪

whenever i read something good, i want to share with you, any problems you encounter i would try to help you and i just hope that you can feel comfortable and happy with me so that things would slowly develop out..but maybe fate has a cruel twist that give me no time and that i have to confess so shortly even though when i leave, i leave to pursue my dream...maybe that is one challenge that i did not foresee...or naively thought we can overcome as long as we have an agreement, just like in drama or novel..but that is not true in reality..

如果大海能够唤回曾经的爱就让我用一生等待如果深情往事你已不再留恋就让它随风飘远如果大海能够带走我的哀愁就像带走每条河流所有受过的伤所有流过的泪我的爱请全部带走

well..i know i will need sometime to recover and yup i know i will treat ypu as friends from now on, so do not worry and do not feel awkward..i really never ever regretted knowing you or even liking you even though it had only be unrequited...

please take care of yourself and i sincerely hope that u can stay happy and cheerful in your studies and also really if fate comes knocking on your door, i wish you all blessings...

i know time will heal all wounds but my heart has been broken so many times before already, now that it breaks, it will take sometime to heal...

ok i think i have emo enough already, time to stop griping and go exercise le =)

ciao, till the next time i blog again bah

lyrics of "Think of me"

Think of me, think of me fondly,
when we've said goodbye.
Remember me once in a while -
please promise me you'll try.
When you find that, once again, you long
to take your heart back and be free -
if you ever find a moment,
spare a thought for me

We never said our love was evergreen,
or as unchanging as the sea -
but if you can still remember
stop and think of me . . .

Think of all the things
we've shared and seen -
don't think about the way things
might have been . . .

Think of me, think of me waking,
silent and resigned.
Imagine me, trying too hard
to put you from my mind.
Recall those days
look back on all those times,
think of the things we'll never do -
there will never be a day,
when I won't think of you . . .

2010-08-06T01:07:00.001-07:00

我竟然没有调头最残忍那一刻
静静看你走一点都不像我
原来人会变得温柔是透澈的懂了
爱情是流动的不由人的
何必激动着要理由

相信你只是怕伤害我不是骗我
很爱过谁会舍得
把我的梦摇醒了宣布幸福不会来了
用心酸微笑去原谅了也翻越了
有昨天还是好的
但明天是自己的
开始懂了快乐是选择

i dunno maybe i should learn from this song and find a way out of the deep crevice that i am in now..and crawl out from the hurt and face life again. most impt i should stop thinking abt you..so that there will be an end bah

2010-08-06T01:04:00.000-07:00

The best thing 'bout tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before?
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start

Oh, but hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in, I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words 'cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight when you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

this is the song that is playing on my head now with this other song:

What’s somebody like you, doing in a place like this?
Say did you come alone, or did you bring all your friends?
Say what's your name, what you drinkin,
I think I know what you're thinking.
Baby what’s your sign?
Tell me yours, I’ll tell you mine.
Say what’s somebody like you, doing in a place like this?
(1, 2, 3, come on!)

I’ll never be the same (if we ever meet again)
Won’t let you get away (say if we ever meet again)
This freefall (ahh), got me so (ohh), kiss me all night
Don't ever let me go.
I’ll never be the same (if we ever meet again)

Oohh, oohh say if we ever meet again

Do you come here much? I swear I’ve seen your face before. (beforeee, yeah)
Hope you don’t see me blush, but I can’t help but want you more, more.
Baby tell me what’s your story, I ain’t shy and don’t you worry.
I’m flirting with my eyes, wanna leave with you tonight.
Do you come here much? I gotta see your face some more.
Some more cause baby I,

I’ll never be the same (if we ever meet again)
Won’t let you get away (say if we ever meet again)
This freefall (ahh), got me so (ohh), kiss me all night
Don't ever let me go.
I’ll never be the same (if we ever meet again)

If we ever meet again, I’ll have so much more to say. (if we ever meet again)
If we ever meet again, I won’t let you go away. (if we ever meet again)
If we ever, ever meet again, I’ll have so much more to say. (if we ever meet again)
If we ever, ever meet again, I won’t let you go away.

I’ll never be the same (if we ever meet again)
Won’t let you get away (say if we ever meet again)
This freefall (ahh), got me so (ohh), kiss me all night
Don't ever let me go.
I’ll never be the same (if we ever meet again)

I’ll never be the same (if we ever meet again)
Won’t let you get away (said if we ever meet again)
This freefall (ahh), got me so (ohh), kiss me all night
Don't ever let me go.
I’ll never be the same (say if we ever meet again)

if time can be turned back, there are many things that i would like to do..but time cannot be turned back..so guess i can only move on..i should be grateful that we are still friends..yup so guess i should smile and leave with all the fond memories bah

2010-07-25T08:01:00.000-07:00

翻开随身携带的记事本
写着许多事都是关于你
你讨厌被冷落
习惯被守候
寂寞才找我
我看见自己写下的心情
把自己放在卑微的后头
等你等太久
想你泪会流
而幸福快乐是什么
爱的痛了
痛的哭了
哭的累了
日记本里页页执着
记载着你的好
像上瘾的毒药
它反复骗着我
爱的痛了
痛的哭了
哭的累了
矛盾心里总是强求
劝自己要放手
闭上眼让你走
烧掉日记重新来过
重新来过

i know i will shelf my memories some where

thanks for sharing such beautiful memories with me =) i have no regrets and yup thanks for finally replying

2010-07-12T09:46:00.000-07:00

If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
Get back on your feet and think of me.
My love will get you home, boy, my love will get you home.

If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home.
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
Get back on your feet and think of me.
My love will get you home, boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashame, my love will get you home.
When there's only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
Get back on your feet and think of me.
My love will get you home, boy, my love will get you home.

this is one of my all time favourites..

haha sometimes i do recycle the songs i post here but i think that's because i love them too much :) and yup i will learn to be optimistic..maybe as you move forward and never look back, you will never know that i will always be around waiting for you

but i know my love will get you home one day, not boy, but girl haha

2010-07-10T01:52:00.000-07:00

刘若英---生日快乐完整版

生日快乐歌词

词∶林夕曲∶陈辉阳

彷佛你就在我身边
等待了一年又一年
对你的思念
三百六十五天
我只等这一天
勇敢地把从前
情人节快乐
变成
祝你生日快乐

I LOVE YOU
说不出口的倾诉
I MISS YOU
让挂念代替了相处
瞬间是永远谈情变祝福
可惜甜言也带苦

I LOVE YOU
是最完美的结束
I MISS YOU
一辈子靠今天接触
瞬间是永远谈情变祝福
可惜都於事无补

今夜有人陪你庆祝
不枉我一年的孤独
请你原谅我不多写一个字
像普通人糢糊
多一字多份痛
今夜我不想哭
Happy Birthday To You
Happy Birthday To You

yup i don't think she even know this place so yeah but i feel like singing this song for her.

anyway come 30 august i will be going back to taiwan, i will definitely miss my friends, the environment and food here.

oh well all good things come to an end and the end beckons to me now so yup i hope that i can find new friends in taiwan as well :)

2010-06-18T02:22:00.001-07:00

a book once said that if you manage to fold an A4 size paper into half 7 times on valentine's day, your wish will come true..

will my wish come true if i manage to fold the paper into half 7 times..

you are the water and i am the fish living in it..my life has always been reconstructed around you, ever since we met, even though that was only a short while ago..

i guess what i can do best is to wait..wait here for you so that one day when you realise it, i am still here waiting for you

even when the flood came as you ignored me continuously, i will just hold on to the pillar of life and wait for you to turn back..

maybe you will call me foolish..and i am indeed, never understanding what you say..but even so, i would just keep your words with me, and never forget..

i always believe in what you say, but when my sky fell, would you even be here for me? you told me some things which i hold to be true but then teh next minute, my sky came crashing down as you go back on your words..but to me i think it is just that i don't understand bah

2010-06-16T02:08:00.000-07:00

从那遥远海边,

慢慢消失的你,

本来模糊的脸,

竟然渐渐清晰.

想要说些什么,

却不知如何说起,

只有把它放在心底.

茫然走在海边,

看那潮来潮去,

徒劳无功想把,

每朵浪花记清.

想要说声爱你,

却被吹散在风里,

猛然回头你在哪里.

如果大海能够，

换回曾经的爱,

就让我用一生等待.

如果深情往事,

你已不再留恋,

就让它随风飘远.

如果大海能够带走我的哀愁,

就象带走每条河流,

所有受过的伤,

所有流过的泪,

我的爱~~~ 请全部带走.

let it be over and i should think i will trust myself bah

2010-06-11T23:55:00.000-07:00

What am I to you

Tell me darling true

To me you are the sea

Vast as you can be

And deep the shade of blue

When you're feeling low

To whom else do you go

See I cry if you hurt

I'd give you my last shirt

Because I love you so

If my sky should fall

Would you even call

Opened up my heart

I never want to part

I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes

I can feel the butterflies

I love you when you're blue

Tell me darlin true

What am I to you

Yah well if my sky should fall

Would you even call

Opened up my heart

Never want to part

I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes

I can feel the butterflies

Could you find a love in me

Could you carve me in a tree

Don't fill my heart with lies

I will you love when you're blue

Tell me darlin true

What am I to you

2010-03-22T23:39:00.001-07:00

haha it has been a long time since i last blogged...well according to records, since last year september..

so here i am in office feeling bored and so decided, hey why not, let's blog!!

anyway the past few days i was being stupid...feeling emo and dao-ing almost everyone around me except my family whom will definitely ask if i suddenly turn all quiet and emo..

so i feel super bad to my colleagues who bore brunt and also my friends whom i had met up if i did..

well after three years, i have finally decided to end it all..because i finally realise that there is no point anymore..people have been telling me that since forever ago but only now then i realised. dumm, nicht?

well..that's because to me she was like the water and i am like the fish that needs the water..once i was content that maybe we can sustain in this way and that one day she will finally accept me but then after swimming in the water for so long, i am feeling tired..

she doesn't know that if she was willing, i would have flown off just to see her..she doesn't know how painstakingly i folded the one thousand paper stars in camp and everybody in my bunk just looked at me as if i am a lunatic..she doesn't know that everytime when valentine's day is here, i would always try to send her a present and on her birthday too...she doesn't know that...maybe beacuse i was only foolishly waiting on the same spot..i always hope that a girl would not wait for me because she would feel sad and lonely, i would rather be the one alone and wait in the shadows till one day she knows that i am always there

but three years is three years, finally this year, i forgot to send her a present for valentine's day, i forgot to pass her a christmas gift..i realise that maybe i am losing this so called love for her..maybe it is time that i learn to forget

it should be sufficient to know that both of us are somewhere in this world living healthily and happily..i think that is enough

sometimes love is about letting go and even in the past i have tried and failed, this time, i will understand that letting go is prob the best for both of us.

btw happy birthday to ms li jiaqi my beloved sister in lafayette haha

and also hopefully my friends from overseas can quickly come back to visit soon =)

2009-09-24T08:19:00.000-07:00

Stay

Stay 因为夜太美
寂寞的月亮
需要星星陪

Stay 不管夜多黑
不管天会亮
不去想明天

带我飞
远远的
到天涯
到海角
浩瀚的
天际里
只要有你陪
也许苦
也许甜
不害怕
不后悔
因为爱
让我们再也分不开

(Just) Stay
Stay 因为夜太美
寂寞的月亮
需要星星陪

Stay 就算是不对
就算是沉伦
错误也是美

带我飞
远远的
到天涯
到海角
浩瀚的
天际里
只要有你陪
也许苦
也许甜
不害怕
不后悔
因为爱
让我们再也分不开

(Just) Stay Stay
带我飞
远远的
到天涯
到海角
浩瀚的
天际里
只要有你陪
也许苦
也许甜
不害怕
不后悔
因为爱
让我们再也分不开
(Just) Stay Stay

how i wish you can stay by my side or i can stay by your side but that dream seems further away now

2009-09-18T07:45:00.000-07:00

happy birthday to me

happy birthday to me

happy birthday to me...

happy birthday to me =)

i am 21..whoohoo can finally vote?? can finally watch r21 movies???(well the artistic ones of course)

my first birthday wish is for my family to be happy and stay healthy, all my family members can be blessed..

my second birthday wish is secret

my third birthday wish is for me to reflect on my past and plan for the future..with hope and what has beens are already in the past..i must learn to look forward =)

had a blessed day with my mum today..very happy now

2009-09-13T02:00:00.000-07:00

身為一道彩虹　雨過了就該閃亮整片天空
讓我深愛的你感到光榮

身為一道彩虹　盡全力也要換你一段笑容
夠了　我愛你　不必人懂　

只要不醒過來　這就不是夢
請看著我　請擁抱我　體溫別流走

好多話想說　好多事要做
請天空給我　請時間給我　再多一點停留

親愛的你　若有感動　請牢記在心中
下一次下雨　你能看見的　那道彩虹　不再可能是我

i just ran teh mizuno wave run today..it is an ORD celebration as well as for you..a form of farewell bah..i ran and ran and the pain in my legs cannot rival the pain in my heart as i now have to learn to say goodbye to you even though i am still thinking and dreaming of you every day and night

but time will heal everything and i hope to find my next rainbow

self reflection when alone

2009-09-09T20:17:00.000-07:00

can't forget you

you took me on a roller coaster ride
your smile makes me high
your tears make me cry
i just wanna stay by your side

will i ever see your laughter
will we ever be together
all the answers sail into never
but i will wait for you forever

can you stop saying i'm nice
can you stop saying being friends will suffice
everytime i see you with other guys
my heart just break into a million pieces

i walk alone on the streets
thinking why i can't forget you
i can't understand why i lost my love
i shoudl stop imagining the answers

everywhere i turn i see happiness
people around me singing
people aroudn me joking
but i just drown myself in sadness

there is noone standing by my side
just a can of beer lying on the right
my heart just feel so tight
as i bid you goodbye tonight

watch you go on your way
in other guy's arms you sway
i decide that i won't stay
all the love i show do not pay

when i thought there was hope
i was all but a dope
i should clean my eyes with soap
and see that the answer will be nope

i think it is time for me to let go..two plus years i have liked you..and two plus years i have pressurised you, perhaps letting you go is the best both for me and you...i am sorry for hurting you, i am sorry for stressing you

知足

2009-08-16T02:01:00.000-07:00

五月天知足

怎麼去拥有一道彩虹
怎麼去拥抱一夏天的风
天上的星星笑地上的人
总是不能懂不能知道足够

如果我爱上你的笑容要怎麼收藏要怎麼拥有
如果你快乐不是为我会不会放手其实才是拥有

当一阵风吹来风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷而祝福而感动
终於你身影消失在人海尽头才发现笑著哭最痛

那天你和我那个山丘那样的唱著那一年的歌
那样的回忆那麼足够足够我天天都品嚐著寂寞

当一阵风吹来风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷而祝福而感动
终於你身影消失在人海尽头才发现笑著哭最痛

如果我爱上你的笑容要怎麼收藏要怎麼拥有
如果你快乐不是为我会不会放手其实才是拥有

知足的快乐叫我忍受心痛
知足的快乐叫我忍受心痛

this song reflects my mood now..everyone is telling me to let go..i will find a more suitable person in the future..i like her but now i think i can only let go now..

i promise her that i would make her happy..and now i think i have failed in my task because of my persistence and now she is annoyed..i thought that fate would bring us together again and that we can have a future together..but..sigh..

i really thought i can forget about her but after so long, i still can't..australia is not so far away yet i feel that we are now so far apart..now i can only learn to let go because i promise her to make her smile yet i cannot keep my promise..now letting go probably is the best thing to make her feel happy and stay cheerful..

i would rather be the one bearing all the pain and feeling sad rather than making her unhappy so if letting go will allow me to achieve that goal..maybe i will have to be determined enough to do it

courage

2009-07-26T09:19:00.000-07:00

courage is something we all need yet lack sometimes...

courage allows us to do things so that we would not regret later...

lack of courage makes us indecisive and we would be regretting why we had not done so..

i regretted that my lack of courage did not allow me to tell you i love you earlier...

now that i have plucked up my courage to like you, you avoid me and ignore me...

but i hope that i will still have the courage to hold on...hoping that one day we will meet again and i can love you once more

for now, we have to say goodbye

ballet and my love

2009-07-19T08:22:00.000-07:00

went to ballet under the stars on saturday...it was a very good concert...the dancers were all very professional and their elegant movements really struck a chord with the audience..

haha there were many kids running around the area..well it was the first time i went for an outdoor picnic event and almost fogot that it was general admission, meaning no seats..couldn't find any picnic mat so we had to sit on cardboards..lol me, yan ling and yihui haha

the kids were very lively, dancing to the music and i even saw a pair of them dancing down the steps..maybe future budding talents are produced at such events when they fall in love with dance..were you also the same at their age??

best thing was when i went to the lucky draw booth..the girl at the booth muttered "omg, it is a guy" well guess i must be the first guy whom they see at a ballet concert -.-''' despite the mosquitoes swarming, it was an enjoyable experience sitting in open air, watching ballet...haha had to move up and down a lot as well as children try to pass me on their way to the toilet..

as i stared at the stage, i imagine her dancing on it..walking on her toes at the sound of the music..shuffling her steps..gliding across the stage..i kept looking around, but there were just too many people, hoping to spot her among the crowd, but i was disappointed...i have been parying since morning, hoping that we can chance upon each other

nowadays, i have been sleeping like a pig..just last last sunday, i slept almost 18 hours straight...maybe because i am feeling tired...or because everytime i sleep, i can dream about you...and when i wake up..i could not see you..so i would rather sleep and think about you...

went back to RJ last monday as well...saw the biodiversity pond..well kinda strange seeing a sort of new ecosystem in our school and also strange rules like no tapaoing food outside of canteen..no buying drinks after 7 pm etc..was joking with my friends, alex, xt and jonny as we sat down to talk about it...

change is bound to happen sometimes..maybe i am not one who adapts well to changes..i misses the old school days where we used to sit around, hang around, studying etc..those were the days, my friends, that we have come to cherish as we move on..why i did not get to know him/her better during our school days...why didn't we take part in that? etc..

for me..why didn't i tell you that i love you earlier..will it change anything?? i promise that no matter what happens, i will never blame you or dislike you, i will always keep you in a place of my heart, thinking of the fond memories..and hoping that one day, we can still share our happiness, joy and everything, no matter how insignificant together...i will continue loving you cos my heart has already been filled by you

2009-07-10T09:26:00.001-07:00

爱你,
不是因为你的美和影
我越来越爱你,
每个眼神触动我的心
因为你让我看见forever
才了解自己,
未来这些日子
要好好珍惜

爱我
有些痛苦有些不公平
如果真的爱我
不是理所当然的决定
感到你的呼吸在我耳边
像微风深情
温柔的安抚,
我的不安定
所以我要
每年研究你的笑容
wo~~
多么自然

forever love forever love
我只想用我这一辈子去爱你
从今以后,
你会是所有
幸福的理由

爱情,
是场最美最远的旅行
沿途遇经泥泞
偶尔阻碍我们的前进
感到你的体温在我怀里
像阳光和煦
巧妙的熔化
我的不安定
不可思议
证明我爱你的理由
wo
多么自然
你感动的眼睛,
我沉默的声音,
仿佛就是最好的证明
就让我再说一次
ilove you ~~
直到永远
oh
forever love
forever love
forever love

Forever loving you...even if you might not feel it...

my project superstar has already been completed...=) let it be my last tenderness to you before we say goodbye bah

2009-07-04T20:22:00.000-07:00

忘了有多久再没听到你
对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久我开始慌了
是不是我又做错了甚么

It has been a long time since you last wrote to me...telling me about what you have been doing, replying to my silly mails...

i thought and thought, maybe i did something wrong that irritated you or made you feel unhappy that you are ignoring me...

你哭着对我说童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂从你说爱我以后
我的天空星星都亮了

i was never your prince before and you have never said that you liked me..so i should never had imagine that our story can be fairy-tale like..

我愿变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
一起写我们的结局

but i still hope that i can become the angel to protect you..you must believe that i can do that and that i will continue to think of you each day you are not by my side...

i watched a program recently that said that being too ingrateful or too loving, will scare off the person you like...being too loving, the person won't know what to do if she/he should accept you out of sympathy or just to reciprocate for the sake of reciprocating...in the end, she/he will shun you...

i have already tried my best..she lives for dance, not for me..all this is just my imagination...i should not deceive myself anymore....

just hope that you can receive my last tenderness for you and keep me in a corner of your heart, that would be enough..

你总是心太软心太软
独自一个人流泪到天亮词
你无怨无悔的爱着那个人
我知道你根本没那么坚强

你总是心太软心太软
把所有问题都自己扛
相爱总是简单相处太难
不是你的就别再勉强

夜深了你还不想睡
你还在想他吗?
你这样痴情到底累不累
明知他不会回来安慰
只不过想好好爱一个人
可惜他无法给你满分　
多余的牺牲他不懂心疼　
你应该不会只想作个好人　

哦算了吧就这样忘了吧　
该放就放再想也没有用　
傻傻等待他也不会回来　
你总该为自己想想未来

你总是心太软心太软
独自一个人流泪到天亮词
你无怨无悔的爱着那个人
我知道你根本没那么坚强

你总是心太软心太软
把所有问题都自己扛
相爱总是简单相处太难
不是你的就别再勉强

Really i must learn to let go slowly...不是你的就别再勉强

2009-04-26T03:57:00.000-07:00

Christine Da'ae - Think of Me Lyrics

Think of me, think of me fondly,
when we've said goodbye.
Remember me once in a while -
please promise me you'll try.
When you find that, once again, you long
to take your heart back and be free -
if you ever find a moment,
spare a thought for me

We never said our love was evergreen,
or as unchanging as the sea -
but if you can still remember
stop and think of me . . .

Think of all the things
we've shared and seen -
don't think about the things
which might have been . . .

Think of me, think of me waking,
silent and resigned.
Imagine me, trying too hard
to put you from my mind.
Recall those days
look back on all those times,
think of the things we'll never do -
there will never be a day,
when I won't think of you . . .

Long ago, it seems so long ago
How young and innocent we were...
She may not remember me,
but I remember her...

Flowers fades,
The fruits of summer fade,
They have their seasons, so do we
but please promise me, that sometimes
you will think of me!

i hope you can think of me even though we may be so far apart...

p.s. i love you

2009-04-21T06:45:00.000-07:00

If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it dosent, then it was never meant to be.

If you love me, let me know. If not, please gently let me go.

When Death to either shall come -- I pray it be first to you, because i would rather stay and endure the loneliness in this world then make you suffer.

And if it all falls apart, I will know deep in my heart, the only dream that mattered had come true. In this life, I was loved by you.

If rain drops were kisses,I could send you showers. if hugs were seas i send you oceans. and if love was a person i send you me!!

i love you my dearest, maybe you won't even know of this place but i want to tell you that i will always love you deep down in my heart =)

A short tale

2009-03-27T07:24:00.000-07:00

Once upon a time, there lived a frog.

He was a little thing, with a happy family and friends around. He was also a proud frog and imagined his shock when he was drafted into the dance group when he was in school..a choice he never made but was forced to take.

He was unhappy in dance, being scared that people would mock him and laugh at him. He would not want to go for dance practices and always had to be dragged there.

However, as days got past, he begin to like dance more and more...the people there made him feel at home and he really found good friends there..he even got to know a junior whom he found elegant and yet humorous...

They always tease each other...he will laugh at the way she walk, always with her feet wide apart, toe pointing towards the side...while she will call him tianji...

Before they part, the girl wrote him a post card, telling him that he will see her walking the most beautiful catwalk ever...one day. He kept the postcard and hope that he can really see her before his eyes again..

He never knew that the little princess will leave him for another country to further her studies...
he thought that there is no chance for them to meet again until the princess ask him about his hometown taiwan..he was very happy, he created an itinerary for the princess and yet he was sad because he couldn't be there to bring her around..

When she came back from Taiwan, he made use of an opportunity to ask the junior out for dinner..he can still remember the place where they ate and what happened that day...her slippers broke..he felt helpless..but she was very brave..she tied her hairband to the slipper so she cans till walk but it was the end of the outing...and it was the last outing

He can confirm his feelings for the princess now...so the little frog asked the princess for her hand..however, she rejected him..and weeks later, she departed for another place to study...the little frog misses her so much...

They remain in contact with each other..but the little frog's thoughts constantly drifted to her...he began to withdraw himself and put her in a special place in his heart..he clung to the belief that the princess will one day kiss him so that he can become a prince...

His friends keep advising him to let go..but he finds it hard to do so...when the princess doesn't reply him for months, he felt very sad...when the princess wrote a reply, no matter how short it maybe, he will always feel happy as it contain information about his loved one...he is truly in love with the princess

The little frog has made up his mind to continue to wait for his princess..just like in the fairy tale, waiting for a happy ending..even though the wait will be long and he may be heartbroken in the end..he hopes that the princess can give him an answer...

2009-03-01T00:58:00.000-08:00

The previous week has been a lousy week!

First, we had a lot of shifting to do in camp and during one of the shifting, a metal cupboard fell and crushed my left hand against another metal cupboard..

then on friday, my sister got admitted into changi general hospital for dengue...luckily i didn't have mob manning that day...

sigh the hospital staff seems very unfriendly and the doctor doesn't seem to answer questions..fortunately my sister is alright now..

then i went CO concert to watch yifang perform..sigh the next morning..i woke up with avery bad sore throat that i am still suffering from now..

not to mention tons of work in camp to do and my OA is still not up yet..still spoilt..sigh

and i have not gotten her email for quite some time already..i hope she will reply me soon.. =(

2009-01-18T02:46:00.000-08:00

went to clarke quay with my friends on friday night...

met at 9.30 at clarke quay station...

spent more than on ehour deciding where to go haha cos we think that fashion bar is too quiet and elegant for us.., i dislike crazy elephant cos the service there is bad..., the pump room has a long queue..., we could not go clubbing cos of improper attire as well as i am leaving real soon,...highlander has no more seats...so we decided on hooters'..which has the infamous reputation of you know what lol...

anyway that's part of our condition too..we must be able to see girls and although i am not too keen on the idea, we embarked on our search for the perfect bar...

quite cheap considering we hit happy hour so we ordered two jugs of 64 oz tiger beer and got one jug free and each jug is only $38.00..anyway i only had time to take one glass before i left cos i had forgotten to bring my house keys along and i don't want to get locked out of my house..

i guess i must have drank too fast, a glass in 3 gurps and after i left, i felt my face getting redder then a tomato..but also partly due to fatigue, i plonked onto my bed and fell asleep straight away...

anyway been trying to figure out taiwanese maths which is kinda challenging considering that they learn many things we don't learn here in singapore..my head is going to explode from the various new formulas...sigh but i must still try because the exam is coming soon..

darn..i have sneezed at least 5 times today..i think i am getting sick..went to cut my hair to prepare for the muster parade and oh man i also need to clean my bunk tonight because of area inspection =(

2009-01-10T22:59:00.000-08:00

On Friday, i went to watch Red Cliff 2 with Benjamin, Cedrick and Costa at SHAW Bugis. For someone who never watch Red Cliff 1 like me, i also don't know why i was crazy enough to watch part 2..maybe because i was quite bored and the movie seemed so highly rated, so i thought watching it would be fun and see the realistic scenes that i had imagined coming alive from the books that i have read.

But it was kinda disappointing, maybe because i am a traditional person? i thought the fighting scenes would be like what the book described, but in the end i felt like i was watching real life video game...i didn't know that Sun Shang Xiang can also fight..okay maybe the director doesn't want to just show the men fighting and the women just wandering around but seriously some parts just look like video game Three Kingdom...like for example Zhao Yun and Zhang Fei were shot but will not die..and their solo fighting skill on the ground seriously reminded me of Three Kingdom where they do back-flips despite their heavy gear and slash through their enemies..

anyway, prefer Cyborg She which i watched on Youtube yesterday. A very touching movie and i like the melodious sound track...the main character of the story was a poor soul who celebrates his birthday alone until a Cyborg sent by the future HIM came to accompany him..unfortunately she can't feel his love until the Cyborg tried her best, maiming her lower body to save the guy..and years later, a girl who had the same looks as the robot bidded for the robot's memory chip and was touched by the story..she travelled back in time to accompany Jiro...tells us that true love need not be said everyday..true love will touch everyone's heart, even the heartless...i think it is by far one of teh best movies i have ever watched..really regretted not watching it in cinema...sigh..

true love is hard to find, after watching the movie, i found myself jealous of the main character...he has finally found his true love but i am still here waiting for my true love...a girl whom i had let go too easily, whom i did not treasure in the past and let her slipped through my fingers...she always call me tianji (frog)..and i would always tease her walking..would always try to correct her walking...now the tianji is still here while the princess had left..when will i see you do the catwalk you promised me? will the princess return to kiss the tianji so that he can become a prince and they both can live happily ever after or will the frog remain a frog throughout his life and stay at the bottom of the well?

with or without love, life goes on. that's what my friend told me..i mustn't think too much, just carry on in life and fate will take its course..i am glad that i have so many friends around me supporting me =) i will be strong..and continue to wait for her to say yes one day..

寒风吹起细雨迷离
风雨揭开我的记忆
我像小船寻找港湾
不能把你忘记

爱的希望
爱的回味
爱的往事难以追忆

风中花蕊
深怕枯萎
我愿为你祝福

我爱你我心已属於你
今生今世不移
在我心中再没有谁
代替你的地位

我爱你对你付出真意
不会飘浮不定
你要为我
再想一想
我决定爱你一万年

2009-01-04T04:22:00.000-08:00

02 jan 09

a brand new milestone in the history of dunman high school and i am proud to witness it. Dunman High school finally shifted back to the new renovated campus at tanjong rhu from the mount sinai temporary campus. 2nd january 09 is the first day of school, also the home coming celebration of dunman high. heard from selina about the event and decided to go back..took "off" haha..besides i can get a long weekend..

the new dunman high definitely look very big, lol as xinyu, yanling, yihui, yifang, lihui and me can testify as we wandered the grounds trying to hunt for mr kiw..and have to admit, the color scheme went wrong i guess cos the painting doesn't look too good..but well overall i am glad that the school moved back..the concert was superb!! i am really proud of our juniors in dance as well as the other performances and i really see a vibrant side of dunman high school...

i also saw a lot of friends, my 4B classmates, my sec 2 classmates, my cca mates, seniors, juniors as well as teachers..it was really very nostalgic walking around in a place i once called school, where i once studied in, where i had many fond memories..i remember the porch in front of 2d classroom where we did rehearsals for national day and teachers' day celebrations..i remember the corridor in front of 4b classroom where we used to hang out and talk crap..our old classrooms where we has remedial lessons and where we spent two years together...whether happy or sad...i miss the extension where we had dance practices i miss the old hall where we always have da4 zu3 huo2 dong4..after walking in the school, memories seems to flood back..old memories that i have shelved away for so long and i thought that i had missed..my memory must be getting worst..sigh...my dearest girl, remember we were once from this school? we knew each other for three years in the school...i wasn't sure of my feelings for you then but now that i have confirmed..you are so far away already..how i wish that i would have let you know then..i want to walk with you in the school again..

03 jan 09

yesterday was class outing at marina square..as i was walking to the mrt station, i suddenly saw a porsche suv drove past and i was wondering if that was cheo's car when i saw him waving at me..lol how coincidental lol..at marina square we went to eat kenny rogers lol..they highly recommended the macaroni and cheese as the sides which is too cheesy for my stomach..but the roast chicken is superb..then after that we wanted to go k box..but then too expensive so we did pool instead haha... which is fun ahah jonny did amazing shots...and charmander that lousy woman keep complaining that i wear saf sandals..sigh ok lah i admit i am poor lol..but i also need to go buys shoes haha..

i will continue to wait here..be the familiar tianji that you always call me...hoping one day you will become my princess =)

2009-01-02T08:13:00.000-08:00

Vaness Wu - My Friend

Goodbye my friend 直到那天　我們真的再見
我會想念　非常想念　希望你在我身邊

Oh my friend 把今天都對摺
存在感覺紀念　朋友是
這生命的伏線　無論怎樣多變　永遠連接

要再見　這是一種諾言
等待我們兌現　超越所有挑戰

朋友是　一輩子的事業
眼神就能了解　不用多言

要再見　這是一種諾言
等待我們兌現　超越所有挑戰

朋友是　一輩子的時間
一首歌的思念　溫暖一切

For auld lang syne.For auld lang syne,
my dear, For auld lang syne,

We’ll tak’a cup o’kindness yet,
For auld lang syne.Sing along now......

O.S.會有那麼的一天吧　我依然有好多好多的事
想第一個告訴你　但發現　你已經不在我身邊
不能天天見面了　我會有點孤單的
I keep you in my prayers...

a song that just sprung into my midn when i went back dunman high to attend home coming..seeing so many friends around... it is uber-cool..

2008-12-25T18:47:00.000-08:00

48 hour duty on christmas eve and christmas day..

meant that i spent my lovely christmas in camp playing the psp cheo lent me!

well actually i need not do duty on both days..the duty clerk job on christmas eve is on pure goodwill..i decided to help after this poor chap whose dad has already passed away and his mum is also very ill came to my branch and look for the duty clerk planner to ask for a swap of duty..and he went with him around to look for replacement duty clerks but then noone willing to swap..so well i just have to help him..cos my family is overseas anyway so i have to spend my christmas alone might as well let him have more family time

then on christmas, i thought i could go home but then the duty spec that day never turn up cos he wasn't informed of his duty..maybe cos RO put my name but i know it was already changed by the guy who planned..then my senior who happened to be the DOO as well as the CDSO who seemed very nice just ask me to stay and help..so ok lah..i am fine with it..just feel a bit disappointed that i can't go home sleep so i stayed in camp and perform my duties..continue playing PSP lol..

so i am finally home on boxing day lol...but ok lah at least next week i can get ample rest...and today am on off lol..

anyway my dearest one..on christmas i am thinking of you very dearly but i wondered if your thoughts have ever strayed to me on this holy and joyous day..i just hope that you can have a blessed christmas and if you remembered me, do not tell me..cos i will just wait and continue to wait until the day you say yes to me..

2008-12-20T06:23:00.000-08:00

爱已不能动
还有什么值得我心痛
想你的天空下起雨来
没人心疼的黑夜
脸颊两行硷硷的泪水
是你哦是你
让我望穿泪水肝肠寸断

你怎么舍得让我的泪流向海
付出的感情永远找不回来
你怎么舍得让我的爱流向海
伤心的往事一幕幕就像潮水
将我掩埋

闭上了双眼还看见和你的缠绵
眼角的泪水喜不去心中一遍一遍的誓言

你怎么舍得让我的泪流向海
付出的感情永远找不回来
你怎么舍得让我的爱流向海
伤心的往事一幕幕就像潮水
将我掩埋

2008-12-20T06:14:00.000-08:00

對你的思念　是一天又一天
孤單的我還是沒有改變
美麗的夢　何時才能出現
親愛的你　好想再見你一面

秋天的風　一陣陣的吹過
想起了去年的這個時候
你的心到底在想些什麼
為什麼留下這個結局讓我承受

最愛你的人是我　你怎麼捨得我難過
在我最需要你的時候　沒有說一句話就走
最愛你的人是我　你怎麼捨得我難過
對你付出了這麼多　你卻沒有感動過

the song that reflects my mood now

2008-12-20T04:46:00.000-08:00

會有那麼一天　－　林俊傑 (JJ Lin)

一九四三　世界大戰　阿嬤年輕的時候
爺爺愛她那麼多　他們感情很深
但是爺爺　身負重任　就在離鄉的那夜
給了阿嬤一個吻　輕聲說道

我要離去　別在哭泣　不要傷心　請妳相信我
要等待　我的愛　陪妳永不離開
因為會有那麼一天
我們牽著手在草原　聽鳥兒歌唱的聲音
聽我說聲我愛妳　

夕陽西下　鳥兒回家　阿嬤躺在病床上
呼吸有一點散漫　眼神卻很溫柔
看著爺爺　濕透的眼　握著她粗糙的手
阿嬤淚水開始流　輕聲說道　

我要離去　別在哭泣　不要傷心　請你相信我
要等待　我的愛　陪你永不離開
因為會有那麼一天
我們牽著手在草原　聽鳥兒歌唱的聲音
聽我說聲我愛你

i love this song man..

last night when dblo lol..

quite a cool place...will go there next time again if have chance...

2008-12-13T04:38:00.000-08:00

love is a simple thing..but i dunno why

maybe it has always been a roleplay on my own.. thinking that prob that we have a chance even when she has left me two years ago and she has already rejected me then...

i keep thinking that maybe one day we can meet back here again...

but all that prob is just my imagination...

when i heard that she was back, but only through my friend..my mind was in a blank..it was an outing that night and i suddenly just didn't have the mood to say anything anymore...

i keep asking myself why she didn't tell me when she is back..why couldn't we meet...and i put it off as my selfishness...maybe she needs more family time, maybe she needs more time with her friends and maybe we are not really that close and i wouldn't be on her list of people whoms he wanna meet...

yes my heart do hurt..but i know i am already numbed..

my friends tell me to let go..i dunno if i should..because i always believe that even when there is one percent chance, we must not lose hope..but now i am beginning to doubt if this one percent was only part of my imagination...

i dunno how to keep on loving you anymore because i am already so tired..i think i need a break..maybe i am bugging you too much..maybe we all need some breathing space..and i am always the selfish one who is imagining too much..that we can be more than just friends..

maybe it's time to let go

2008-11-14T06:14:00.000-08:00

Lonely the path you have chosen
A restless road, no turning back
One day you will find your light again
Don't you know
Don't let go be strong

Follow your heart
Let your love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe I believe I believe in you
Follow your dreams
Be yourself an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you cannot do
I believe I believe I believe in you

Tout seul
Tu t'en iras tout seul
Cœur ouvert
A l'univers
Poursuis ta quête
Sans regarder derrière
N'attends pas
Que le jour
Se lève

Suis ton étoile
Va jusqu'où ton rêve t'emporte
Un jour tu le toucheras
Si tu crois, si tu crois, si tu crois
En toi

Suis ta lumière
N'éteins pas la flamme que tu portes
Au fond de toi souviens-toi
Que je crois, que je crois, que je crois
En toi

Someday I'll find you
Someday you'll find me too
And when I hold you close
I know that it's true

Follow your heart
Let your love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe I believe I believe in you

Follow your dreams
Be yourself an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you cannot do
I believe I believe I believe in you

i love you and believe that one day we will meet and be in love..hopefully our future lies together ahead my dearest..i miss you even if you are far away and i cannot see you now but the occasional email i get from you every two or three months is enough...

love you dear

2008-11-02T04:37:00.000-08:00

haha it is november already

17 more days before i going on leave back to taiwan...

accidentally knocked my head against the wall the other day..sigh still hurts

and went to watch tropic thunder and rec* which are quite cool lol...

2008-10-17T05:50:00.000-07:00

today as i was on the mrt on my way home, i accidentally, note the word "accidentally" peek at the uncle who was messaging on his phone...

pardon me for being rude, but his message was kinda interesting so i continue looking...oops..i think i am getting more of a busybody..but here goes: "if given a choice, do you think you would love someone or love yourself more?" well this sound kinda familiar..so i started thinking the philosophical side of the question..hmm..relates back to the movie i watched yesterday..Vicky Cristina Barcelona...well Vicky is someone who loves someone more than herself..she has a nice marriage and she loves her fiancee..yet a chance encouter with the flamboyant artist Juan Antonio caused her inner flame to burn..she has an immensely deep affection for Juan Antonio yet her love for her fiancee outweigh her own love for herself to satisfy her needs and she broke off with Juan Antonio...on the other hand, Cristina is a person who loves herself more than anyone else..she loves Juan Antonio and would not mind sharing him with his ex-wife Maria Elena..and actually she was just loving herself, satisfying her sexual desires and finally departing when she feel that the desire for the both of them is no longer that strong..so well actually to the question, there is no ultimate answer and i would not even have an answer yet for such a heavy question now...

okay..anyway yesterday's movie was kinda messy..had a five minute interlude when everything went blank...but well GV is nice to give us complimentary tickets to compensate our emotional torture for the bloody five minutes when we have to stare at the blank screen and think what the heck is going on...

when i was on the train back today..was kinda emo and quiet..sigh don't really know why..but was just thinking and thinking..because i had read a novel in which the main character has so little memories of his past...seems like me..i seems to be forgetting my childhood days..or do i even have childhood days..the sweet times i had when i was in primarys chool and secondary schools..how can i keep in touch...i don't want to lose my memory...of teh precious moments i shared with my friends..

but now is a new chapter for all of us..but i will know that if i have flipped back to my previous chapters, i would like to see that they remained filled and i can recollect fondly of the nice, sweet people around me...i am beginning to stop missing the people who had left and i will not feel guilty because i know we will still remember each other deep down in our hearts...

if there is one thing i wanna rewrite, maybe to know more people better and to love her more bravely from the start

2008-10-10T06:13:00.000-07:00

Yesterday went to see my friends, eileen and su hui at NTU..haha because my friend hua zhou ask me whether want to go crash their hall and so i agreed..

but firstly i went to find xin hui who is also studying at NTU lol..had dinner and after dinner, suddenly hua zhou and su hui came over to find me..after i had eaten lol..they met up first ...

after that we went to su hui's room, her room is kinda cool..has a lot of yummy food...oops i mean looks kinda cosy...quite small but all the necessary stuff all have..talked a bit..mostly listen to them talk while we wait for eileen to finish her basketball training....cos i am very tired..the previous few days have been sleeping after 12 am..

then eileen finally came lol..she ran all the way back..haha still as red as ever...then we went her room enjoy aircon and talk somemore..haha she mixed up her roomie's dad's crest as the one that can help prevent ghosts lol..but police's crest like no use leh..i think army one more effective lol...

yup then eileen ordered supper, but i already asked cedrick and benjamin eat with me at jurong point already so i didn't want to eat...and i am too tired..feel more and more sleepy and quiet...

but glad that they are doing well in NTU haha and glad to see them again after so long lol...

yup tmr will be out whole day again most likely..then sunday shall go hunt for a new phone...yea!!!! maybe tmr will also go drinking if i feel like lol...

auld lang syne cum angstyness

2008-10-04T07:31:00.000-07:00

窗外的大雨　
淋濕冰冷的空氣　
好羨慕　天空可以哭泣

孤單的往前進　
我答應過我自己　
要贏到世界交給你

忘了多久沒有擁抱你　
我沒有流淚的時間　
沒有後悔的餘地

請原諒我那麼執著　
為了夢追到天空角落
伸手捉住風　我放開了你　
沒想過沒有溫度的愛有多痛

請原諒我讓你一個人過　
失去了你　還要夢想做什麼
這一次　我會握緊你的手　
一錯再錯　什麼都不懂的是我

都放在心裡　愛就失去了意義　
為什麼我到現在才醒
等待有多委屈　
你是否傷透了心　
告訴我來不來得及

忘了多久沒有擁抱你　
我沒有流淚的時間　
沒有後悔的餘地

請原諒我那麼執著　
為了夢追到天空角落
伸手捉住風　我放開了你　
沒想過沒有溫度的愛有多痛

請原諒我讓你一個人過　
失去了你　
還要夢想做什麼
這一次　我會握緊你的手　
一錯再錯　什麼都不懂的是我

請原諒我讓你寂寞　
這世上至少你要懂我
這一次換我在夜裡等候　
從今以後　你是我唯一的執著

sigh so many people have left. yesterday night, the last batch of people who are leaving for imperial had finally left..including my good friend ang xiao ting whom i will miss dearly, her mum treated us to popeyes haha at terminal 1..sigh and of course huanghuan..a friend of mine for seven years already

i went to the airport wanting to send only them off..in the end i ended up finding more familiar faces poping up at the same row in terminal 3 haha my army friend samuel from Bravo SISPEC, who got OMS Scholarsip, meihui and jasmine liu, my ex-prefect schoolmates, guiyi, a french connection cca-mate who claimed i daoed her when she waved at me and some more people..sigh..just too many people leaving

ok i think i should stop emo-ing while missing them, i must not forget that i still have very good friends here like jonny, benjamin, cheo, cedrick, michael, adrian, ian and the ever violent charmander and her "husband" ggy, as well as nelson, daniel, dylan, and all the rest haha so many to mention...

on hari raya, i sent her off too..i dunno why..i just stone there and maybe just said three words to her..take care, good bye and bon voyage...but well so she has left too..

i also begin to miss those who are overseas already..like alex, twinses..yanyi...and jiaqi..

sigh i really should stop angsting..

and i should start applying for overseas school which is going to be quite rush..so..well...

anyway..she still haven't replied to my question yet..i would always like to think that she is too busy to see my email..maybe that would comfort me more...maybe she is being happy now that she won't have the time to reply me..maybe i should just let her go...she is happy where she are now..doing her favourite degree, pursuing her favourite dance..so maybe i should be the one letting go of hope and give up..it was all unrequitted love on my part anyway...

彩虹
身为一道彩虹
雨过了就该闪亮整片天空
让我深爱的你感到光荣
身为一道彩虹
尽全力也要换你一段笑容
够了我爱你不必人懂
只要不醒过来这就不是梦

请看着我请拥抱我体温别流走
好多话想说好多事要做
请天空给我请时间给我
再多一点停留

身为一道彩虹
雨过了就该闪亮整片天空
让我深爱的你感到光荣
身为一道彩虹
尽全力也要换你一段笑容
够了我爱你不必人懂
亲爱的你若有感动请牢记在心中

下一次下雨你能看见的那道彩虹
不再可能是我

身为一道彩虹
雨过了就该闪亮整片天空
让我深爱的你感到光荣
身为一道彩虹
尽全力也要换你一段笑容
够了我爱你不必人懂(只要你懂)
身为一道彩虹 ......

《外套》
我早该知道你只是偶尔的需要
习惯了你的味道挡风成了我的骄傲
每个心跳开始都计算不到
难道给我的回报只是陪你在他的怀抱
做你的外套只能穿梭你的外表
听到你对他的撒娇可笑的是我没资格计较
做你的外套拥抱著却不被拥抱
我是谁你知不知道怎能随便穿上又换掉
我能拥有什么答案早就明了
学会哭也能笑 oh no
怎么不听劝告怎么不被想要
还在为你效劳会不会疯掉
还在为你效劳你知不知道

finally a tribute to my friends

should all acquaintance be forgot and never brought to mind
should all acquaintance be forgot and days of auld lang syne
for auld lang syne my dear
for auld lang syne
we'ill take a cup of kindness yet
for auld lang syne

不要问不要说
一切尽在不言中
这一刻偎著烛光
让我们静静的渡过
莫挥手
莫回头
当我唱起这首歌
怕只怕
泪水轻轻的滑落

愿心中永远留著我的笑容
伴你走过每一个舂夏秋冬

几许愁
几许忧
人生难免苦与痛
失去过才能真正懂得去珍惜和拥有
情难舍
人难留
今朝一别各西东
冷和热
点点滴滴在心头

愿心中永远留著我的笑容
伴你走过每一个春夏秋冬

伤离别
离别虽然在眼前
说再见
再见不会太遥远
若有缘
有缘就能期待明天
你和我重逢在灿烂的季节

i will miss you guys

为着你今天要来找我
从早上等到深夜
阮总是相信你会跟阮来作伴
犹原没影没只
我不敢想那没你甘会像我
按怎都我的生命
寒风也冷不过你对我的心肝
哪通糟蹋着我
爱着你心惊惊
想着你心痛痛
但是我没法度
将感情收拾
看着你爱别人
就亲像你爱我
等别人对待你亲像你对待我
按怎拢未心痛
爱着才知影痛
我已经没资格对你讲条件

2008-09-21T03:12:00.000-07:00

i knew it

she won't even know when is my birthday nor will she care...

ah well....

i just think my friends are the best in the world haha

and my family too..

on my birthday i went eat at sakura international buffett with my dad..do not doubt it..it is JAP food but well the food there are mostly western and the sashimi is not fresh =( somehow i don't feel like it is a buffett where one eat a lot of nice food..down there i eat a lot of not very nice food and the price is expensive too...not to mentioned i had a stomachache afterwards..urghh..did i mention that the sashimi was not fresh??

then at night i went eat dinner with xt...haha treated her to korean food..well from food court since i am not that rich..lol..because it is a farewell treat from me..so yup...and we had ice kacang after my usual ban mian...

friday night i went to SICC with my friend..who treated me and my colleagues to western food..
haha then we played pool..quite cool haha

and today i went pooling with jonny too..

well my life is colourful enough with friends..

i think i need not find love anymore

tata

2008-09-17T08:07:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to ME...
Happy birthday to me!!

my age is starting with the 2-s now..no longer 19...i am going to turn 20 in 47 minutes time

my birthday wish is a secret

but i hope that everyone in my family will stay healthy

my dad and mum's business can be good
my sister's studies can keep improving and she can find a course she like and uni to go to
and i can find myself a decent medicine school to go and study and the girl in my life soon...hopefully i will be accepted....

all in all i also wish that all my friends, colleagues can have good health and will stay happy and cheerful..those who have gone overseas, please take care of yourselves..may you guys have fun and continue excelling in the various fields..and hope that we can meet again soon =)

now i shall have a good night sleep bah

2008-09-07T03:41:00.000-07:00

斷線風吹的沉重　
心煩意亂要出航
薄情的靈魂　
是我感情的秋冬
孤單送行的人　
帶著心事目眶紅　
要走的人是甚人

對阮的愛是永遠　
偏偏乎妳沒半項
對阮的愛不願放　
是妳對阮的願望
海角天邊的怨嘆　
抱著青春將阮送
孤單送行的人　
不通傷心　
船要入港

斷線風吹的沉重　
心煩意亂要出航
薄情的靈魂　
是我感情的秋冬
孤單送行的人　
帶著心事目眶紅　
要走的人是甚人

對阮的愛是永遠　
偏偏乎妳沒半項
對阮的愛不願放　
是妳對阮的願望
海角天邊的怨嘆　
抱著青春將阮送
孤單送行的人　
不通傷心　
船要入港

對阮的愛是永遠　
偏偏乎妳沒半項
對阮的愛不願放　
是妳對阮的願望
海角天邊的怨嘆　
抱著青春將阮送
孤單送行的人　
不通傷心　
船要入港

a nice taiwanese song telling people not to be sad when sending others off..

2008-09-07T03:32:00.000-07:00

sigh

another of my good friend has left again today...

went to see her off at the airport, she is going london to study law..

haha i will definitely miss her liveliness and energy around...

tmr..another of my good friend will be leaving too..for stanford...i don't know why so late but yeah....she is such a nice person who always encourage me and talk crap with me..so now i have one less person to talk crap with..

i hate this season again when i have to endure the funniness of sending someone off..knowing that the chances of meeting up again is maybe only 1 out of 10

*sigh...next month there will be somemore...=(

and i am already missing those who had already left....

alex, twinses, jiaqi....yanyi who just left this morning...urghh

and of course my friend in australia...whom i still miss dearly even though she has been there for 2 years already..

may fate bring us to meet again somewhere or somewhen in this world..

2008-08-30T06:55:00.000-07:00

tell me how can i cheer up?..i think i need to learn to be happy...

three years ago, i met her..she was such a nice person..we started talking and crapping with each other...yeah rumours flew abound yet i thought nothing of it..thought that we were just friends...yet when after the exams, upon reflecting on my feelings, i realised that i had already fallen for her...when i was studying, she will appear out of nowhere in my mind..i would always yearn to receive her reply to the crappy stuff i sent her via sms..and would get very disappointed if she did not reply....is this what you do when you fall in love with someone.....and then the fear that you will not see her agin since we may go different places..but coincidentally, we met again...yet i had already bared my feelings to her and she had already rejected me...she told me that we should just be friends...now she seems very happy..perhaps she has found someone she like...

then two years ago...she is a very funny person..we met by coincidence through friends..but her humour and well lack of art talent made me laughed at her...we seemed to click very well..and when i was feeling sad, she will always encourage me..and yeah we were always teasing each other..well i thought i liked her..and many of my freinds also thought the same..i don't deny that i did admire her..but an advice from my friend told me that she already has someone on her mind and i decided that we should be friends which would be better...

fate took a turn, i met her..at the end of 2006, we knew each other for four years already...we sort of appreciated each other but yup were not very close though..we went out together once..yup..maybe humans are like this, whatever there are going to lose, they will appreciate the thing more... she is about to leave this place..i asked her if she is willing to be with me...she tell me that she is about to go and do not wish to be involved in a relationship now...but we are still friends, we sent emails to each other and kept in contact...

i like her...for slightly more than a year...i put in the most effort to go after her..even though i never say, my closest friends all thought that i like her..which is true...because they always laugh at me say that i always bully them yet when she say something, i will most willingly follow...and sometimes we got into conflict because of that..but they understood me..i am always happy that they stood by me even though they know i am bound to fail..she is a perfect girl, a girl that's impossible to find..we studied together..we joked around together...i will never forget to celebrate her birthday even though she always forgot about mine..i gave her a bouquet of flowers and a soft toy when we went out for movie with friends just around valentine's day...when she was working, i went alone to visit her to see her...when i went overseas, i always thought of bringing her a present, when it was a rainy day, i would ask her to take care...when she was feeling unhappy, i was unhappy when she feels cheerful, my mood clears up..yet i think i am not an important person to her bah...i liked her...when i told her, she just say that i am a great person but she doesn't like me that way and we should just be friends...my heart was broken..completely this time...fallen into pieces and shards...maybe i am clinging on to useless hope..but i did pass her the last present to bid her farewell..like what my good friend told me..she ask me to bring a closure to this sadness..she say that if i am not important to that girl, why must i keep trying since she will never appreciate my efforts...to that i don't know why..just hope that i can walk out of this one day...my another friend before he left tell me not to be sad anymore...there is treasure everywhere, i just need to appreciate things more and i would feel more happy...thanks for his support but now i don't think i am fully healed yet...

my colleagues at work always ask me why i like listen to songs that have sad lyrics, sad tunes..because i am feeling sad...and yes..i thank them very much that they would try to cheer me up..when i play games during work because i am bored..i just needed something to get me to think about other things other than her when i am not working so pardon me if you think that i am addicted to that game...sadly my office has two person that has same english name as her..how ironic..that i want to avoid thinking of her yet her name keep ringing in my ears....

don't know lah..i am already a numbed person..maybe i will laugh and smile still but that hurting feeling is still following me everyhere..i don't want to wallow in this..just hope time can heal all wounds..

是否很惊讶讲不出说话
没错我是说你想分手吗
曾给你驯服到就像绵羊
何解会反咬你一下你知吗
回头望伴你走
从来未曾幸福过
赴过汤蹈过火
沿途为何没爱河
下半生陪住你
怀疑快乐也不多
没有心别再拖
好心一早放开我
从头努力也坎坷
通通不要好过
来年岁月那么多
为继续而继续
没有好处还是我
若注定有一点苦楚
不如自己亲手割破
是否不甘心首先给撇下
换了你是我你忍得到吗
捱得过无限次寂寞凌迟
人心态早己看得化也可怕
回头望伴你走
从来未曾幸福过
赴过汤蹈过火
沿途为何没爱河
下半生陪住你
怀疑快乐也不多
没有心别再拖
好心一早放开我
从头努力也坎坷
通通不要好过
来年岁月那么多
为继续而继续
直接不过承认错
若勉强也分到不多
不如什么也摔破
难捱就无谓再拖
好心一早放开我
从头努力也坎坷
通通不要好过
来年岁月那么多
为继续而继续
没有好处还是我
若注定有一点苦楚
不如自己亲手割破

Listen to Your Heart-D.H.T
I know there's something in the wake of your smile
I get a notion from the look in your eyes yeah
You've built a love but that love falls apart
Your little piece of heaven turns to dark

Listen to your heart
When he's calling for you
Listen to your heart
There's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going
And I don't know why
But listen to your heart
Before you tell him goodbye

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile
The precious moments are all lost in the tide yeah
They're swept away and nothing is what it seems
The feeling of belonging to your dreams

Listen to your heart
When he's calling for you
Listen to your heart
There's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going
And I don't know why
But listen to your heart
Before.... you tell him goodbye

And there are voices that want to be heard
So much to mention but you can't find the words
The scent of magic, the beauty that's been
When love was wilder than the wind

Listen to your heart (take a listen to it)
When he's calling for you
Listen to your heart (take a listen to it)
There's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going
And I don't know why
But listen to your heart
Before oh... before you tell him goodbye

Listen to your heart (take a listen to it)
When he's calling for you
Listen to your heart (take a listen to it)
There's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going
And I don't know why
But listen to your heart
Before you tell him goodbye

Gifts and Curses- Yellowcard
Mary belongs to the words of a song.
I try to be strong for her, try not to be wrong for her.
But she will not wait for me anymore, anymore.
Why did I say all those things before I was sure?

(She is the one), but I have a purpose,
(She is the one), and I have to fight this,
(she is the one), the villain I can't knock down.

I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
still I will always fight on for you.

Mary's alive in the bright New York sky,
the city lights shine for her, above them I cry for her.
Everything's small on the ground below, down below.
What if I fall, then where would I go, would she know?

(She is the one), all that I wanted,
(she is the one), and I will be haunted,
(she is the one), this gift is my curse for now.

I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say.
Still I will always fight on for you.

(Instrumental)

I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say.
Still I will always fight on for you.
Fight on for you...
Fight on for you...

i will try to cheer up...

2008-08-23T06:09:00.000-07:00

today is the day i await so nervously, getting of out my bed blurry-eyed and ya immediately turning on the radio...to listen to what? the ops manning recall of course...

i listened to the radio the entire afternoon and nothing happened..

so i decided to go to the temple with my mum and sister who rarely goes out since she spends her time studying for her prelims and a levels nowadays..

along the way on the bus no.32, i was intensely staring at the tv mobile showing argentina vs nigeria..when i notice this boy sitting opposite me trying very hard to draw my attention..he waved at me to ask me to sit next to him..

-.-''' i was like what the man..then the guy sitting in front of him evacuated and i went over to that seat to get a better view of the screen..but he came over and sit with me again..

by now..i think something is wrong..and then he started talking to me..ask me which school i was from...all the way from JC to my Pri Sch..is this guy sent by the MSD or what? he also ask me how old i am and who is in my family, where is my dad now..is my mum at home..where is my sister studying, how old is my sister...do i have any brothers...

then he started ranting about his stuff while i politely answered his questions and continue staring at Messi do his mesmerising footwork...then he ask me where was i dropping...and i said Singapore Buddhist Lodge...he turned to his mum and when his mum told him where that was...he was very excited... i was like -.-'''

erm then i dropped off from the bus and he waved at me when the bus passed me again..as i waved back, my mum thought that he was my friend -.-'''

sigh after that i went to the nat library to borrow books...suddenly i saw that my mum called me from home..and say that she saw the little green man flashing on the tv screen..uh=oh.....i can't be heading back to camp in bermudas and sandals...

luckily upon checking, it wasn't my code that was flashing..luckily..otherwise a lovely saturday would be ruined for booking in..

but then come evening..i received a sms..a brilliant superior just asked me to help him arrange a meeting for tuesday.... i was like -.-''' must i work on this lovely saturday too? sigh....

yeah today is raining whole day..so those who go out please bring an umbrella and don't get sick...

ok i am feeling random now..lol

random

2008-08-15T05:41:00.000-07:00

today went to the southern ridge walk that was newly set up only this year..some tree-top walk that links up the new Hortpark from alexandra road to mount faber...

well conclusion is very hot......because we did the freaking walk in the afternoon, right when the sun was freaking hot!

however, there were nice scenery along the way..got BENJAMIN tree haha..my colleague's name..as well as the sea view from the top...

i recommend this tree-top walk for couple in the late evening..sure very romantic..

"Wake Me Up When September Ends"

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends

2008-08-03T03:45:00.000-07:00

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me'
Til then I walk alone
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone
Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ahAh-ah, Ah-ah
I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Til then I walk alone...

nice song by green day-boulevard of broken dreams

2008-08-02T07:40:00.000-07:00

today we had class outing to mind's cafe..

i thought that the service would be as good as the settler's cafe that we had been to last time, but then it ended up so lousy...i was so disappointed

we were forced to cram 11 person on two sofas and a few benchs, trying to play two different games on a small table..when we requested to have two tables, the waiters just told us that we should try play one game instead of two..and squezze ourselves...what kind of lousy suggestion is that?

and i seriously doubt the waiter's abilities..they seem to take forever for them to check if we can split into two tables and they did not even seem to be able to explain the games properly..:(

but overall..we had fun because we ened up talking crap and trying to force each other to mortgage the property to the other..playing monopoly and throwing negotiation terms that sounds incredulous here and there..lol

i still feel so empty after so long..i can't understand why...the wound is still not yet healed..whenever i am by myself..i will keep thinking of you....hopefully i can let go soon..

2008-08-01T07:12:00.000-07:00

酒矸倘卖无(他没人关心)
酒矸倘卖无(他没有明天)
酒矸倘卖无(他只有寂寞)歌
酒矸倘卖无(酒矸倘卖无)
多么熟悉的声音
陪我多少年风和雨
从来不需要想起
永远也不会忘记
没有天那有地
没有地那有家
没有家那有你
没有你那有
假如你不曾养育我
给我温暖的生活
假如你不曾保护我
我的命运将会是什么
是你抚养我长大
对我说第一句话
是你给我一个家
让我与你共同拥有它
虽然你不能开口说一句话
却更能明白人世间的黑白与真假魁
虽然你不会表达你的真情
却付出了热忱的生命
远处传来你多么熟悉的声音
网让我想起你多么慈祥的心灵
什么时候你才回到我身旁
让我再和你一起唱ｉ
酒矸倘卖无
酒矸倘卖无
酒矸倘卖无
酒矸倘卖无

2008-08-01T06:24:00.000-07:00

"we rely on sight to confirm the existence of things. we don't believe in things that we can't see. so how do we know that no-see-ums exist? verification is ruled out by definition. it is an ontological quandary." from calvin and hobbes comic...

whoa i never know that such philosophical quotes exist in this comic strip that i just borrowed on a whim.

i am never a philosophical person, but i just seem to be fascinated by this quote, partly because my english vocabulary is quite weak and this quote attracted me because i did not know the meaning of two words in it...lol

anyway just for those who like to "think" to savour it!

this week si quite a messed up week..on wed i was supposed to conduct some morning physical training and because my friend stayed very far away, i did not want him to come so early to help..so i told him to ignore my superiors orders to reach at 7.00 am and to come at 7.30 instead...however, he ended up getting scolded for not reaching earlier...i explained to my superior but they told me to stop covering up for him...i feel very guilty and sad :(

because of my folly, i made my friend get scolded..sigh

and i know that his reputation among my supriors are already not that fantastic and now it has worsened...:(

then i watched this video clip on youtube..it was a song saying that we are always complaining too much, we complain that our car is not cool enough, our house not big enough. we complain that our food taste bad, our wives are ugly

but when the car is too chic, we are scared that it will be stolen, when the food is too good, we scared of getting high blood pressure, when the house is too big, we complain of the hassle to clean up, and when our wives are too pretty, we are scared that she might run away...

just what are we always complaining about, compared to the unfortunate people in africa who has no food, or those poor kids in rural india who still stays in unsanitized conditions or thos people in china who are living under no roof due to the disasters, we are a fortunate bunch...maybe we should stop complaining too much

we are really fortunate to have each other around us as friends and all...

em...

2008-07-25T07:16:00.000-07:00

well...

i like my present posting because i have great partners like benjamin and cheo who always cheers me up and makes me laugh with their antics..

i also like my present posting because even though i am a strange person who likes to stay-in camp even though my camp is a stay-out camp, i still manage to find people like michael and adrian who stays in with me..

however, i don't like it here beause my superiors are vey naggy..and some are unreasonable, they flare up like unreasonable stoogies...and yeah have nothing to say..just that their arrows will fly any where...why aren't i an archer..i would have shot them back...

why didn't you tell me that you are back in singapore? do you know that i miss you so much...?
why can't we even meet up?

and why are you ignoring me? did i do something wrong?

sigh...

nejamin and cheo they all ask why i am smiling all the time..because if i don't smile, i will just be sad..and i am just trying to smile and laugh all the time so that the sadness will not overpower me...

forced happiness and how bitter it is, now i finally understand

2008-07-18T08:35:00.000-07:00

i eat at cheapo hawker centre
you eat at posh restaurants
i watch dumb movies like "get smart"
you watch artsy movies like "there will be blood"
i listen to pop music
you prefer the indie type
i speak low class english
you speak perfect high class english
i buy my clothes cheap
you wear designer tees
who am i to kid
when i say that i have fallen for you
i think i am only a toad
lusting for swan's flesh
only a clown that's fooling around
you will never like me
because i am never good enough
all i want to let you know is that
even if i am only a joker to you
i am happy
because i can make you smile
and that's all that matters

just for you

2008-07-13T02:19:00.001-07:00

后来　我总算学会了　如何去爱
可惜你　早已远去　消失在人海
后来终于在眼泪中明白
有些人　一旦错过就不再
槴子花　白花瓣　落在我蓝色百褶裙上
“爱你”　你轻声说
我低下头　闻见一阵芬芳
那个永恒的夜晚　十七岁仲夏　你吻我的那个夜晚
让我往后的时光　每当有感叹
总想起　当天的星光
那时候的爱情　为什么就能那样简单
而又是为什么　人年少时
一定要让深爱的人受伤
在这相似的深夜里　你是否一样　也在静静追悔感伤
如果当时我们能　不那么倔强
现在也　不那么遗憾
你都如何回忆我　带着笑或是很沉默
这些年来　有没有人能让你不寂寞
后来　我总算学会了　如何去爱
可惜你　早已远去　消失在人海
后来终于在眼泪中明白
有些人　一旦错过就不再
你都如何回忆我　带着笑或是很沉默
这些年来　有没有人能让你不寂寞
后来　我总算学会了　如何去爱
可惜你　早已远去　消失在人海
后来终于在眼泪中明白
有些人　一旦错过就不再
后来　我总算学会了　如何去爱
可惜你　早已远去　消失在人海
后来终于在眼泪中明白
有些人　一旦错过就不再
永远不会再重来
有一个男孩　爱着那个女孩

i like yesterday's steamboat outing

happy birthday xiao ting haha

sorry for being emo last night

i promise to be cheerful now on..

2008-07-11T09:19:00.000-07:00

my heart hurts whenever i send you a message because you never reply
but when you did, my heart hurt even more......
maybe our game of hide n seek have ended
but i would rather that i had not heard your answer....

this world has been kind to me, to let me get to know you, to let me see you and meet you, be friends with you and let me fall in love with you...
in the end maybe we are just fated to be friends, good friends only and we will have to stop at that..i feel very sad that this is the end...

because tonight will be the night that i will fall for you
over again
don't make me change my mind
or i won't live to see another day
i swear it's true
because a girl like you is impossible to find
you're impossible to find

your arrows of love shot me and now i am bleeding from the hurt that it has caused me...yet strangely, i am willing to be on the receiving end of your cupid's arrow again

they say time will heal all wounds..*bitter smile i hope so and perhaps a change of environment can create wonders...

but all i can say is that my love for you will still be there...just like in this video...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=blyz4zzruKE&feature=related

it is my favourite song =)

i hope it can show you amply how much is my love for you....

nah you won't even come here, what am i talking about, who am i kidding......

i am but a mortal...who has fallen in love with a princess of high esteem...
her high-class taste i tried to appreciate
her smile makes me smile,
her frown makes me frown
she controlled my emotions...yet now..all has come to a nought

please tell me that time can heal me of my wounds....

2008-07-07T06:37:00.000-07:00

敢讲咱的缘分已经尽
空头情诗度阮后半生
红红的夕阳渐渐渐渐渐渐斜西边
你随彩霞慢慢慢慢慢慢消失我眼前

缘分已经尽
缘分已经尽
情网破碎啊
美梦化云烟
心痛交雨内
青春挂目屎
不甘
伤心
痛苦无人知
心爱再会啦
你是我
今生今世的最爱

敢讲咱的缘分已经尽
空头情诗度阮后半生
红红的夕阳渐渐渐渐渐渐斜西边
你随彩霞慢慢慢慢慢慢消失我眼前

缘分已经尽
缘分已经尽
情网破碎啊
美梦化云烟
心痛交雨内
青春挂目屎
不甘
伤心
痛苦无人知
心爱再会啦
你是我今生今世的最爱

缘分已经尽
缘分已经尽
情网破碎啊
美梦化云烟
心痛交雨内
青春挂目屎
不甘
伤心
痛苦无人知
心爱再会啦
你是我今生今世的最爱

a taiwanese song literally in taiwanese very sad song i am sad song

2008-07-05T07:16:00.000-07:00

First one by me:

Hide n Seek

Baby, you look so chic
Make me wanna kiss your cheek
Your high-class taste I try to mimic
But in the end I am just too weak

Take you out for wagyu steak
All I got was your meek
How is it to make us tick
What is then the trick

Oh baby I am so sick
Of this game of hide n seek
Memory is like the basket wick
Weaving you into my mind every day and week
Oh baby you are my pick
I just wanna tell you really quick
Loving you is a habit that I just can’t kick

Baby, give your wand a flick
What you’ve got is magic
I know that I am not sleek
I am a sad case that’s tragic

To you I am only a prick
Some guy whom you just wanna get rid
No matter how hard I did
To you I will always be a geek

To you I just seem to be a greek
A stranger who is such an ick
Worthless like a block of brick

another one by me:

我爱你
很想你
你却说你很讨厌我
我到底该如何怎么作
才会让你爱上我

记得这个问题吧
难道我真的不好吗
给你的慰问没有回答
我的心真得很痛啊

海滩上白色的沙
告诉我是该放弃啦
我的心早已经被你践踏
泪水一直在心里割划

你的心里有另一个他
所以装不下我的牵挂
我想自己真的很傻
为何生日时还寄你贺卡

临别时送你的那一束花
只是最后剩下的潇洒
你不高兴我让你骂
那只是从前的回忆啊

生命力的酸甜苦辣
心中有说不出的话
对你的爱早已程式化
想要戒掉也戒不掉啊

a very nice cantonese song that i found

天涯侠医主题曲
爱亦近
林峰
如深呼吸貼近天空愛的心
從天災戰事助人夢裡飛行
願星光終照亮傾出愛的心
微風中笑著願隨互愛精神
心相近
愛越近
似夢似幻似是人生
雖偶遇挫敗有淚印
有淚與共結伴如今
秒秒更迫真

眼望見若意外情急
情總不自禁
能竭盡氣力作護蔭
我真心
就算犧牲
不需要問回贈
越過胸襟
將會讓過萬眾跳出抖震

无止境漂泊没掌声与欢欣
无声的国度助人梦里飞行
愿一天终听着歌声与欢欣
晨曦中暗地独随互爱精神
心相近愛越近

約會約誓愛是情深
不會讓眼淚往下滲
有淚與共結伴如今
你我更相親
爱就要令告白情感
情總不自禁
如每段故事有烙印
又不禁
就算犧牲
不需要問回贈
越過胸襟
將會讓過萬眾跳出抖震

无止境漂泊没掌声与欢欣
无声的国度助人梦里飞行
愿一天终听着歌声与欢欣
晨曦中暗地独随互爱精神
心相近
愛越近
心相親
愛亦更

nice right? try listening lol

2008-07-04T06:48:00.000-07:00

"Fall For You"

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

This is the song that best reflects my mood now..i seriously like you but i wonder if you would ever respond...haha i am posted to my new unit..hopefully will lead a nice life there...

2008-06-28T08:52:00.000-07:00

用起伏的背影
挡住哭泣的心
有些故事
不必说给
每个人听

许多眼睛
看的太浅太近
错过我没被看见
那个自己
用简单的言语
解开超载的心
有些情绪
是该说给
懂的人听
你的热泪
比我激动怜惜
我发誓要更努力
更有勇气

等下一个天亮
去上次牵手赏花那里散步好吗
有些积雪会自己融化
你的肩膀是我豁达的天堂
等下一个天亮
把偷拍我看海的照片送我好吗
我喜欢我飞舞的头发
和飘着雨还是眺望的眼光

用简单的言语
解开超载的心
有些情绪
是该说给
懂的人听
你的热泪
比我激动怜惜
我发誓要更努力
更有勇气

等下一个天亮
去上次牵手赏花那里散步好吗
有些积雪会自己融化
你的肩膀是我豁达的天堂
等下一个天亮
把偷拍我看海的照片送我好吗
我喜欢我飞舞的头发
和飘着雨还是眺望的眼光

时间可以磨去我的棱角
有些坚持却永远磨不掉
请容许我
小小的骄傲
因为有你这样的依靠

等下一个天亮
去上次牵手赏花那里散步好吗
有些积雪会自己融化
你的肩膀是我豁达的天堂
等下一个天亮
把偷拍我看海的照片送我好吗
我喜欢我飞舞的头发
和飘着雨还是眺望的眼光

a nice new song which is quite cool

i like today's class outing but we did stupid things haha

2008-06-27T08:52:00.000-07:00

等你等到我心痛
等你等到没有梦
所有感觉已成空
就让一切都随风

等你等到我心痛
我的心情谁会懂
所有真情的感动
已消失无影踪

爱你爱你始终
恨你恨你不懂
我付出的情有多深重
反反复复的爱不能相拥
我真的等你等到心痛
平平淡淡的爱怎能相容

2008-06-27T08:22:00.000-07:00

Sean Kingston's Beautiful Girl

Damn all these beautiful girls
They only wanna do your dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say it's over

[Chorus:] Your way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You had me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only wanna do your dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say it's over

[Verse 1:] See it started at the park
Used to chill after dark
Oh, when you took my heart
That's when we fell apart
Cause we both thought
That love lasts forever (lasts forever)
They say we're too young
To get ourselves sprung
Oh we didn't care
We made it very clear
And they also said
That we couldn't last together (last together)

[Pre Chorus:] See it's very devine girl
You're a one of a kind
But you mash up my mind
You walked get declined
Oh Lord... My baby is driving me crazy

[Chorus:] Your way to beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You had me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only wanna do your dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say it's over

[Verse 2:] It was back in '99
Watchin' movies all the time
Oh when I went away
For doin' my first crime
And I never thought
That we was gonna see each other (see each other)
And then I came out
Mami moved me down South
Oh I'm with my girl
Who I thought was my world
It came out to be
That she wasn't the girl for me (girl for me)

[Pre Chorus:] See it's very devine girl
You're a one of a kind
But you mash up my mind
You walked get declined
Oh Lord... My baby is driving me crazy

[Chorus:] Your way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You had me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only wanna do your dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say it's over

[Verse 3:] Now we're fussin'
And now we're fightin'
Please tell me why I'm feelin' slighting
And I don't know
How to make it better (make it better)
You're datin' other guys
You're tellin' me lies
Oh I can't believe
What I'm seein' with my eyes
I'm losin' my mind
And I don't think it's clever (think it's clever)

You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal....

the song is very nice

2008-06-22T00:03:00.000-07:00

花的心藏在蕊中
空把花期都错过
你的心忘了季节
从不轻易让人懂
为何不牵我的手
共听日月唱首歌
黑夜又白昼
黑夜又白昼
人生为欢有几何

春去春会来
花谢花会再开
只要你愿意
只要你愿意
让梦划向你心海

春去春会来
花谢花会再开
只要你愿意
只要你愿意
让梦划向你心海

花瓣泪飘落风中
虽有悲意也从容
你的泪晶莹剔透
心中一定还有梦
为何不牵我的手
同看海天成一色
潮起又潮落
潮起又潮落
送走人间许多愁

春去春会来
花谢花会再开
只要你愿意
只要你愿意
让梦划向你心海

春去春会来
花谢花会再开
只要你愿意
只要你愿意
让梦划向你心海

只要你愿意
只要你愿意
让梦划向你心海

a nice song...

不要问
不要说
一切尽在不言中
这一刻
偎著烛光让我们静静的渡过
莫挥手
莫回头
当我唱起这首歌
怕只怕
泪水轻轻的滑落
愿心中
永远留著我的笑容
伴你走过每一个舂夏秋冬

几许愁
几许忧
人生难免苦与痛
失去过
才能真正懂得去珍惜和拥有
情难舍
人难留
今朝一别各西东
冷和热
点点滴滴在心头
愿心中永远留著我的笑容
伴你走过每一个春夏秋冬

伤离别
离别虽然在眼前
说再见
再见不会太遥远
若有缘
有缘就能期待明天
你和我重逢在灿烂的季节

伤离别
离别虽然在眼前
说再见再见不会太遥远
若有缘
有缘就能期待明天
你和我重逢在灿烂的季节

伤离别
离别虽然在眼前
说再见
再见不会太遥远

伤离别
离别虽然在眼前
说再见
再见不会太遥远
若有缘
有缘就能期待明天
你和我重逢在灿烂的季节

不要问
不要说
一切尽在不言中
这一刻
偎著烛光让我们静静的渡过
莫挥手
莫回头
当我唱起这首歌
愿心中留著笑容
伴你渡过每个春夏秋冬

another nice song

别想你
忍不住我提醒自己
伤了心
有些事也要过去
心很痛
痛的不想再做我自己
别回头
情已去缘已尽
很想你
也不是因为失去你
爱了你
用尽我全心全力
一生情
只为这一次与你相遇
情难了难再续难再醒

人分飞　
爱相随
那怕用一生去追
我又怎么能追得回
与你相慰
我为你痴为你累
风雨我都不後悔
我又怎么有路可退
曾经深情
你给了谁

(music)很想你
也不是因为失去你
爱了你
用尽我全心全力
一生情
只为这一次与你相遇
情难了难再续难再醒

人分飞　
爱相随
那怕用一生去追
我又怎么能追得回
与你相慰
我为你痴为你累
风雨我都不後悔
我又怎么有路可退
我如何面对

人分飞　
爱相随
那怕用一生去追
我又怎么能追得回
与你相慰
我为你痴为你累
风雨我都不後悔
我又怎么有路可退
曾经深情
你给了谁
final nice song lol

2008-06-14T07:32:00.000-07:00

do you know how to get from boon lay to paya lebar with $0.67?
well i did that today without cheating SBS of money
the bus broke down just three stops away from my house and yup i had the majority of my ride free of charge
wonder if it was pure unclucky of me or lucky that i get to save 1 buck on my trip.

this has been a roller coaster week for me:
saw a pangolin in the training shed near my company line
quite cool i chased after it but it went to stroll along the road instead.
too bad saf doen't allow the use of camera otherwise i would have captured the surreal picture

somehow my plans for outings don't seem to materialise
can't help it, everyone is just so busy =(
and i am starting to miss people who are going to leave very soon and a sense of longing..
i hope i can stop angsting soon
for those two unfortunate NSF who had passed away, let's observe a minute of silence for them

one of my favourite songs

Christine Glass's My Love Will Get You Home

If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home.
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashame, my love will get you home.
If its only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of me,
my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home,
Boy, my love will get you home

they say that there is a melody for joy, a melody for anger, a melody for sadness
memories, bliss, youth, travel each have their own melody
but do you know that there is a melody for longing and a sense of missing somone whom you love dearly

that melody is now playing in my heart

2008-06-07T08:41:00.000-07:00

thanks for friends who always stand by me, listening to me
lol i have been angsting most of the time but i am still quite cheerful and not under depression
now i feel like watching " You don't mess with Zohan"
just because of this catch-line in the trailer...
- ring ring
(cue electronic answering system)
-welcome to the hizbollah terrorist network hotline
-for weapon acquisition please press 1
-otherwise press 0 if you need to speak to our contact person

funny and witty i think this movie will be, so i want to watch it.. anyone interested?lol
yup bought the book The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini this morning..reading it now.
very intriguing the plot and touching but kinda depressing

sigh
ok sometimes life is unfair..when you work hard you don't always get the rewards due to certain reasons either luck or what
but we have to accept it c'est la vie as i had said before

ok option 4 for my future is out MOE rejected me
so leave lesser options..then we shall see

i hope my week ahead will be a good one and that next weekend, hopefully can meet up with some friends and just chat lol...

don't cry baby don't cry
don't sigh baby don't sigh
don't try baby don't try
let the tears just dry

decisions

2008-06-01T08:02:00.000-07:00

now i am at the crossroads of my life!
for my higher studies:

option 1: stay in singapore, study at NTU, take the biochemistry and traditional chinese medicine double degree
advantages- can probably study medicine in the NUS-Duke medical school for post-graduate or go US do post-grad in medicine
disadvantage: i need a change of environment and this course takes too long..

option 2: apply medicine in germany
advantage: can go germany my dream destination and yeah study there and give myself exposure
disadvantage: expensive due to living costs and might not get in?

option 3: apply medicine in Taiwan
adavantage: cheap and quality of study is there
disadavantage: i will most like stay there and yup..settle down back where i came from since i won't be taking up singaporean citizenship and most likely stay with my family
currently this is also my best viable option to study medicine

option 4: hope that MOE give me scholarship go study linguistics in german in germany
advantage: go germany study for free and can travel around
disadvantage: how to get the scholarship when competition is so fierce..and being a teacher is my last career option

option 5: forget about medicine..let's study aeronautical engineering..in US or UK?
advantage: well teh course seems easier to get in and more universities to choose from..
disadavantage: money where art thou? scholarship? or bank loan..and for US my SAT needs major improvements man

so many choices..so many decisions to make..i am totally lost..is it because i am not focus enough in my career options...

sigh

i just went to watch black book..a very cool movie..
and i also watched narnia with alex lol

but as i walk alone on the streets...a sense of loneliness still engulf me..
maybe because i know...

let me go
let me be free
i shan't think of you anymore...

let me go
let me be free
i shan't be totured nomore

in this lonely lonely world
my heart is sore
i am sure that i saw
that my frozen heart will not taw..

this phone call
by the sea shore
will bring me forever more
heartbreaks

2008-05-31T06:50:00.000-07:00

独自一个人走在街头
一个人慢慢地走
走到了一栋大楼
进去寻找那个某某

一个人独自看着电影
希望看见那个倩影
其实早已不相信
可以弥补那破碎的心

一个人孤单寂寞
一个人独自承受
有谁会去思念我
这一切都是我的错

错在我的天真
错在以为梦境会成真
只能够越陷越来越深
想要得到一个拥抱一个吻

孤单早已侵蚀我
心痛早已冲昏我
走出了这栋大楼
寻找不到那个某某

又再一个人向前迈进
独自一个人的旅行
你不回我的简讯
不在乎我是否不开心

一个人孤单寂寞
一个人孤单承受
思念一个人很痛

sadness

2008-05-17T06:30:00.000-07:00

sian ah..double blow...
no medicine and got aslc..
what the worst outcome can i still get
i feel very sian now and dun feel like talking anymore
just let me emo
=(

2008-05-03T23:18:00.000-07:00

Friends Forever

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we’re gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won’t be coming back
No more hanging out cause we’re on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don’t have another day
Cause we’re moving on and we can’t slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn’t know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We’d get so excited, we’d get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life’s not fair
And this is how it feels

*As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?

Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won’t interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it’s not goodbye
Keep on thinking it’s a time to fly
And this is how it feels

*As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our live change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends forever

La, la, la, la
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it’s like we’re WOMEN and MEN
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it’s not goodbye
Keep on thinking it’s a time to fly

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends forever

a song for the class especially for those who had got into universities overseas and are leaving for studies this year.
Suddenly feeling angsty and this is not good. Probably because I know that when it comes to time for departure we will all miss each other terribly but no matter what where we go what we do, I know we will understand each other and continue to love each other dearly in our hearts =) friends foreva

你的脸庞是一首歌在晚风中轻轻的唱清澈明亮不会忘
你的拥抱是一首歌在我怀里轻轻的唱脆弱坚强我都不放
一天中最美的时光为什么非得是夕阳
和从前每一天一样我就站在这里眺望

我要明天你还在我身旁我答应你会牢记这片灿烂的远方
我要明天你还在我肩上我答应你会忘记有种感觉叫悲伤

this is a song我答应你 which is very nice and cheerful haha
which is quite cool
remember the support we gave each other during prep for a levels and the encouragement in the class ^^
we will always be a beautiful song in each and every of our heart

心没有芥蒂
只有纯纯的友谊
金黄的夏季
没有任何的猜疑

手中的铅笔
在纸上留下了笔迹
希望几行字能写下我们的友谊
海岸边的围堤
浪花的快慢缓急
恬静的美丽就能让我心旷神怡

那温暖的晨曦
想久缺的新鲜空气
我忍不住想留恋不想分离

你的美丽让我只想和你在一起
永不分歧心理不会再感到悲凄
你的鼓励让我走完人生的阶梯
友谊永远长存不会但淡去

世间真理难道我们不能够珍惜
不会忘记你会永远存在我心里
成了知己流下眼泪让友谊成立
你是唯一真善美的结合体

一束花的甜蜜让幸福到处洋溢
不论身处在世界那方奔走东西
一页页的日历记载了我们的回忆
我此刻希望我们的友谊能够坚持到底

something I came up with at a whim but well don’t seem good enough so the best is still this song by S.H.E called 痛快 which I like very much because it teaches us to let us put our spirit and energy in doing whatever, whether be falling in love or what which is quite true and to take an optimistic outlook in life so stay cheerful yea!!!!

痛快去爱
痛快去痛
痛快去悲伤
痛快去感动
生命给了什么
我就享受什么
每颗人间烟火
全都不要错过

每一天都是一个节庆
每件事都发生来丰富我的记忆
很好奇还有谁等着闯进我日记
欢迎光临亲爱的请享用我的感情

痛快去爱
痛快去痛
痛快去悲伤
痛快去感动
生命给了什么
我就享受什么
每颗人间烟火
全都不要错过
痛快去感动

笑与哭都值得用力气
吻和泪都是该表框纪念的痕迹
很乐意每段路都有陌生人同行
爱或伤害都欢呼都是活过的证据

痛快去爱
痛快去痛
痛快去悲伤
痛快去感动
生命给了什么
我就享受什么
每颗人间烟火
全都不要错过

艳阳暴雨
不要客气
请一直澎拜我热切的血液
我活着的目的就是活得鲜明

痛快迎接
痛快等候
痛快去试探
痛快去触碰
生命安排什么
我就感谢什么
每颗人间烟火
全都美丽了我

痛快去爱
痛快去痛
痛快去悲伤
痛快去感动
生命给了什么
我就享受什么
每颗人间烟火
全都不要错过
痛快去爱
痛快去痛
痛快去悲伤
痛快去感动
生命给了什么
我就享受什么
每颗人间烟火
全都不要错过
痛快去感受
haha must go field camp next week wish me luck at pulau tekong again

2008-04-05T08:06:00.000-07:00

i am very sad..
you cheated me..
or was it i was too innocent
when i asked you out
you replied to ask me the time..
i say it depends on you
then u nevere reply
then i ask you again..u just say not free...
so was it that i misunderstood or what?
maybe even if i sms a thousand times, your reply will be the same..whether u be free or not
is it?
maybe i should just forget it
i am just wasting my messages..
whatever i say to u u dun care
whenever i am concern u dun care
when i look back
i have been the only one going after you and making u happy
were u there when i was sad?
no way...
maybe i should just stop myself thinking of you already
three years is enough

random

2008-03-28T08:21:00.000-07:00

managed to survive my first week in sispec
i in bravo company
met very very cool frens there and jonny is in my section
i feel so happy got a lot of people to talk to lol
heard that bravo is quite physically strenuous
i hope i can survive future weeks
why are you so dao today..talk to you only get one-liner
sigh =(
ok i am feeling crappy and sleepy now need to book in on sunday again lol
hopefully next week will get better

2008-03-23T07:03:00.000-07:00

going Sispec tmr
haha
hope that it will be ok
take care guys

2008-03-18T22:04:00.000-07:00

sigh...
is it because everytime i ask you out, i am unlucky to pick a time that you are not free or that you just don't want to go out with me?
when i asked you last time, you said you will tell me when you are free...
and now..i have waited for more than two weeks without getting a reply....
i have given up...my time is up...i wish i could wait but the time doesn't permit...
is it because i have express my liking for you that now we are doomed to play hide-and-seek? you never even reply to my message when i asked you that question..

当我爱上你时，我愿意奉献我的全部的心，凭着真诚与执著，爱护着你，以你的幸福为首要顾念
do you understand i hope to be your angel..but i wonder if you will ever let me be there for you...

maybe it will take a miracle..maybe i should just give up...

2008-03-18T08:30:00.000-07:00

anyway wanna go watch leap years..anyone interested can tell me...
sigh...
dunno why maybe when you can't have romance you desire to watch it and feel the love in the air lol...
haha anyway the movie is quite good or so i heard lol
so should watch and support local production
i feel liek watching rule no.1 too lol

haha

2008-03-18T08:28:00.001-07:00

to those who are wondering
i am ok..not emotionally unstable..though i feel quite down but i am ok..seriously ok..
anyway that is only to those very precious few lol

2008-03-16T08:44:00.000-07:00

the taiwanese election is coming up..my sister is very excited about it..
she seems to hate some particular candidate while i don't care...
i doubt my ex-GP teacher mr lim will approve of my apathy towards politics but heck care..i don't need to do GP now =)..whereas my sister is vehemently attacking some candidate lol...

ok..i have POPed for abt close to a week..so yup doing nothing much except visiting some bars and meeting frens at class outing...
lol
first i went crazy elephant at clarke quay..sorry to say the service was completely lousy..the waitress can't really understand english very well and was quite impatient =(
she keep coming back at us to bug us to order new stuffs..sigh...maybe it is just her..lol...or maybe we are just too poor to order more expensive stuff like singapore sling? haha well ns men don't earn much
secondly i went to harry's? at holland village cos my fren worked there..haha not being biased or what but her bar is much better at least got premier league football and noone keeps bugging me to get drinks..not that she will dare to lol and the cider she recommended taste good..sourish but still good..

finally went class sleepover..haha watched two towers and saw most of the people collapsed and snuggled up at the sofa..before the movie ended lol..slept for like 1 plus hours only and went to check up on those who played halo..they were sleeping already but the room was very cold and they didn't use blankets..sigh so i went to help cover them up =).. so that they don't catch a cold lol..

NUS open house yesterday..quite cool..but i went lotsa times so not very interestoing to me already and my balloon is already deflated..

that's the summary of my week..

sigh the person never reply me again...i asked if the answer was the same and the person refused to send me back the answer..so i took it to be the same..i know i am not a likeable guy and will never be to that person

never mind..i already expected such an outcome..so what else can i still hope for...
nothingness in my heart..so just let go...i will try to..

2008-03-07T07:46:00.000-08:00

cumulative annoyance..
quite a cheem word that i have learnt today..maybe that describes me! a person who easily lapses into cumulative annoyance, that is i will annoy other people and irritate people easily with my constant buggings..
yeah..so from now on i better learn how to shut my trap..since people don't like me to talk..and don't like me to ask questions..i shan't do so..
just shut up! that's what i should do right?
sigh..even if i am concern about you, even if i say i misses you, honestly, do you care? or you just think i am crazy? maybe i think the answer is latter..
everytime i bare my feelings to someone..what i get will just be a cold shoulder in the future..maybe we even lost each other as friends!...how many times have i asked for a girl's hand and it ends up we will never ever talk to each other again..
am i that annoying and scary? maybe i am. andreas is right..i shouldn't brood over it..i am just immature..
do you think i dare tell you how i feel now...i don't want to lose you too much and all i can do is bottle this up..
when i saw you feeling jubilant, i wanted to hug you...but i didn't, knowing that your joy is yours, you will not share it with me..there are other people who you care more...i am just a normal person around..you will have a special one to celebrate with and i am not that guy

random stuff:
If you need a handsome boyfriend
i shouldn't be the one here
if you need an officer boyfriend
then i shouldn't be here

if you need a rich kid boyfriend
i shouldn't be here
if you need an athletic boyfriend
then i shouldn't be here

when you are down
i will be here by your side
leding you a shoulder for you to cry
but when you are celebrating
i sit aside
watching you from afar

do you know that i cheered for you
do you care about my feeelings at all
when i am down do you know
when i am happy would you give me a chance to celebrate with you
maybe it will be a miracle

i was just your sparetyre
while you continue to hunt for the better
i will always be the reserve
who will ever like me

noone care about my feelins
they used my heart and then they return it
tell me now what can i do
i am so hurt
i have no strength to love anymore

let me go
why can't you just leave me alone
if i messaged you just don't give me any hope

please..so what if i am heartbroken..c'est la vie...who will care? you have already trampled all over it, do you still want to crush it somemore..and stab your knife into all the chambers and ventricles? my heart doesn't exist anymore...so just leave me alone and let me be lonely by myself..

2007-11-25T07:55:00.000-08:00

i know now that you don't appreciate my love for you...so well..my departure has only met with your indifference..maybe i shouldn't have tried at all..why did i bother to do so..lol
doesn't matter..i guess your reply to me in the form of silence is enough and i shall just say goodbye to you

2007-11-25T07:53:00.000-08:00

i will miss my german class too...=)
haha..thanks for being there and i will always remember the way we were frantically practising german before a levels and the laughter we share during camps as well as the outing aha
i will remember our trip to geylang to eat frog's leg porridge lol
so yup..i will miss you guys a lot

2007-11-25T07:52:00.000-08:00

Hey I dunno what to say anymore..but I know I will miss you guys very very much..like never before..ok 12 hours before my flight now lol…and tmr still have to wake up very early..i think I admit defeat…I shall stop filling in the brightsparks form..
Anyway I expect this blog to stagnate again as I won’t have a computer in Taiwan for me to use so…that’s that:
something i wrote this morning lol:

两个年头
一个节奏
手牵着彼此的手
寻找完美的温柔

不再回头
不再回首
有难题一起承受
不会再觉得难过
因为我不再寂寞

*我要离去
不要哭泣
请你一定要再相信我
我的爱
会存在
一辈子永不离开

或许有天
会再回来
我们的笑容依旧会在
问彼此过得好不好*

新的生活
新的迷惑
我们还要向前走
路上荆棘还很多

临别的沉默
话说不出口
友谊花开已结果
请你不要忘了我星星永远会闪烁

frens remember the love we share lol

tribute

2007-11-24T08:32:00.000-08:00

haha
this is my new blog, because the previous one has been abused..haha the tagboard and i decide that actually maybe i can have a new blog lol
anyway
this first post shall be dedicated to my JC class lol..
it has been two years since we first met and i am truly grateful to have such a nice JC class, who accompanied me through these days and really we had a great time together. haha i will always remember the overseas CIP trip we had done, the class outings at restaurants like think Cafe Cartel and even at jonny's house, weilin's house or my house recently =)
these are all fond memories..i really think JC years are too short*sigh i believe we could have got to know each other better before we part
the time when i first walked into the classroom, i didn't know what to expect partly because i don't know most of the people..but...how was i to know that we have walked so far already today...
our class have a lot of achievements? haha..so many olympians as well as cool people around...as well as for the fun of it scandals :p we work hard and studied hard for a levels and even though PW was a nightmare but oh well..haha it is over...
i really want to thank all the guys who have helped me...it is nice getting to know everyone in the class haha and maybe i don't really know some people well enough bah..
ok...
so now..
i will be leaving soon..haha
maybe for the guys we will see each other in NS and maybe others during class outing
something i wrote in the morning before i went to Mr and Mrs Chong's wedding haha, forgive me if i made any grammatical errors lol

Tribute:
When we first met each other
we were all strangers
knowing nothing about our future
with all the new teachers

Working hard for the past two years
sharing all the joy and tears
as we overcame all the fears
striding forward as one with cheers

(Now it is time for a new start
to different places we all depart
but deep down in our heart
we will never ever part

The sweet memories we all hold fast
in our love we will trust
as we set sail with our new masts
remember the time when we first walk into the class)

Day after day we just laugh
as we travel down the path
even if the roads were rough
it will just make us tough

Looking back at the things we've done
as we walk in the rain and sun
as we sing and have fun
we will always remain as one

haha well something i find fun haha
lol ok if i come online again i will try and write more now i feel sleepy and want to have some sweet dreams lol =)

may fate bring us together again <3